I too want a love story - KarEena

2(15). A whirlpool

Karishma walked into her room, Arshad went to sleep in a minute as he was exhausted after playing with his Ammi and not to mention the emotional baggage he had been carrying since morning. Once Noor Jhan Ji and Haseena went home, Karishma walked away before Pushpa Ji could have a talk, knowing well her mother was not going to stay quiet after what conspired at the dinner table and the evening conspiracy with Haseena was a bonus.

Karishma sat down leaning on her bed, she looked around the dark room, a little yellow glow from the bookcase's fairy lights spread a little light, she deeply sighed closing her eyes and tears broke out as they were just waiting for Karishma to relax.

"What do you want me to do Shiv Ji?" Karishma whispered seeing out of the window where the little glow of the moon too dim to notice spread around

"All these self-books, years of relentless tries to come out of this trauma and still I am standing at the very beginning as clueless as the first day," Karishma sniffed, she continued in her hoarse voice, not louder than a mere whisper, "you know what's the biggest problem? I know what's wrong with me and what I have to do to come out of it but clueless on how to execute"

The moon's shine dimmed more as clouds engulfed it, "I fear I also engulf others into darkness if I walk into their life again! Haseena doesn't need this; she already endured a lot" Karishma wiped her tears.

"But how can I take away my son's right to live with his Ammi? I promised to fulfil his every wish when he was still inside me," fresh tears again made their way out, "aur pura shehar jantahe Karishma Singh apne wade ki kitni pakki hei" she sadly chuckled.

"Argh! Why does everything have to be so hard?" Karishma sobbed into her palms, "every time I thought that I got everything under control and boom, everything is f*cked up, it's like the minute I catch my breath another wave comes in crashing me down once again" relentless cries broke out of her.

"I don't know what to do" she wailed, "I am sorry that I failed as your Mumma, Arshu. I am so sorry" Karishma cried her heart out remembering the tears Arshad had during the dinner, it killed her to see him like that, a new guilt that not only a partner but she also failed as a mother.

Haseena was silent all the way home, while Noor Jhan Ji also kept quiet as the weight of the guilt weighed heavily upon her. Haseena walked onto the balcony after cleaning up, her phone flashed with a notification, she ignored it as she was already exhausted and didn't want to go through another case file but her phone buzzed again.

"You really don't seem to love giving me a break, don't you?" she sighed looking at the sky.But her demure changed after she saw the name, "Mi Amor" she whispered, her heart thudded opening the message, after everything that happened today, she was a little scared of Karishma's thought process, although they always believed in talking things out but Karishma's first reaction to any uncomfortable situation is fleeing, she does come back but it would be an intense two or three days and with everything that's happening between them, Haseena is hell scared.

Haseena frowned reading the message, she knew Karishma had changed in these four years but the message didn't make sense, "we would be meeting at the school tomorrow, then why would she want me to come to their house before that?" she said out loud.

"I just hope everything goes well tomorrow, please don't take them away from me" Haseena started at the sky as tears flowed effortlessly.

"I never regretted my decision to go to Spain but the guilt of leaving all of them in pain is unbearable, I broke all of them" Haseena gulped the budding sobs in the back of her throat.