5SOS Imagines vol. 2

Friends With Benefits-CH

A/n: okay so this story.... This is basically what happened to me. Except the ending is a happy ending. The guy I've been in love with for three years is not in love with me. He always told me he was but then one night when he was drunk he told my friends he was in love with someone else. Then my friend told me and she told him he needed to talk to me about it bc stringing me along like that was totally fucked up. Then we talked and basically dry fucked which confuses me so much! Idk. Sorry haha I needed to clear that up.

YOUR POV

Calum and I were cuddling on the couch watching a movie. I didn't really want to, considering what I had heard the other day. He told one of my friends that he didn't love me. That when he kissed me, there was no emotion. I couldn't believe it. He strung me along because he knew I would always be there. And I was stupid enough to believe that someone as attractive as him would want me.

The only reason we were cuddling right now is because I couldn't let him know that I knew what he told my friends. Believe it or not, I was the one that felt guilty now. I guess because I knew what he didn't want me to know.

I stood up and walked down the hall to the bathroom. I was gone for about ten minutes before Calum came to find me.

"(y/n), open the door."

"I'm using the bathroom, Calum, " I said, no emotion in my voice.

"No you're not. Now come out."

"Why?"

"Because something is wrong, and it is my job to find out what it is." I scoffed at this. He can never seem to tell when he's the problem. He always talks about other girls and I get quiet. I get jealous, I'll admit. But why wouldn't I when he's been here telling me that we would be together at some point? "(y/n)."

"What?"

"Get out here. Right now." I opened the door and stood in the doorway. "You were very stiff when we were cuddling. Its like you were trying to pull away from me. What the fuck is going on?"

"You don't love me," I said bluntly.

"What? You know that's not true."

"Then why did you tell my friends you didn't. Yes, they fucking told me. And they were right to. Why would you string me along if you knew we would never be something?"

He took in a deep breath and rubbed the back of his neck.

"We are friends with benefits, and I knew that. But you always made it feel like we were growing into something. I've fallen in love with you, and you knew that and you still decided to continue on like this. What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"(y/n)... I... I do love you. More than anything in this world. I just... I'm not ready to be in a relationship yet, and I told your friends that because I didn't want them to know the truth. You know what that bitch did to me..." he was referring to his ex.

"I do, and you know that I would never do that to you. Calum, I love you so much. I could never dream of hurting you."

"I know... I just... I am so sorry, (y/n). I didn't want to ruin our friendship by taking it to the next level."

"But you already did that the instant you kissed me that night on my porch. That's all it took. Its already like we're dating, Calum! We do things couples do. The only thing we don't do is show it in public. Calum... I can't keep waiting for you. And I know you're going to tell me not to, but its just not that easy. This needs to stop. Or you need to do something about us. Because you know damn well I am ready for you, and I know you are ready for me. I'm not her, Cal. I'm not that stupid bitch who is going to cheat on you. And I know that falling in love with your best friend is scary, but you have to realize that if you don't take a risk, you'll never know what could have been."

Next thing I knew, Calum crashed his lips to mine. The kiss was slow, and passionate, and it felt real.

"I want you, (y/n). More than anything. Let's just... let's just take it slow. Okay?"

"That's all I ever wanted to do... I like what we do, but I'm not ready for all the intimate stuff just yet either..."

"How about I take you out tomorrow? Just you and me eating a big pizza."

I laughed and said, "That sounds perfect."

Calum kissed me again and said, "Can we go back to watching movies now? And will you cuddle me like you mean it?"

"Yes, and yes."

"I love you, (y/n). So damn much."

"I love you too, CalPal."