5SOS Imagines vol. 2

The Darkness Within-AI

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YOUR POV

I decided to go for a walk. I felt the anxiety and depression kicking in. The walls had been closing in on me at home and I needed to get out before it consumed me completely. I thought some fresh air might help. I found an empty bench in the park and sat down. The entire park was empty.

"Just like how I feel," I muttered to myself. I yawned and looked up to the night sky. The night was black with only the light from a few street lights and from the stars above. I yawned again. I was tired. I woke up before Ashton even did, which is early since he has to be at the studio at dawn. And to top that off, I was tossing and turning the whole night.

I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath, only to be interrupted by my phone vibrating in my pocket. I pulled it out to see that my fiance was calling me. I answered, "Hey, Ashton," I spoke, exhaustion clear in my voice.

"Hey, princess," he said, worrying lacing his voice. "Where are you? I got home and you were gone. Usually you tell me if you won't be home."

I shut my eyes and silently scolded myself for my mistake. "I'm sorry, Ash. It must have slipped my mind."

"You sound tired."

"Yeah. . ."

"Where are you," he repeated.

"I went for a walk. I'm at the park. Not too far from home. I'll come home now," I said and stood up.

"I'll meet you halfway. I don't like you walking around this late at night by yourself."

"Alright. I'll see you in a minute. I love you."

"I love you too, baby girl."

I hung up and started walking. I pulled my jacket closer to my body as a cool breeze blew across the park. The streets were empty, much like the park. Probably because it was past eleven pm and everybody was in bed. I ended up meeting Ashton sooner than I anticipated. I assumed he had just decided to keep walking until he found me.

He pulled me close to him, kissed my lips and then hugged me tight. My head rested on his chest and I breathed in his scent. I was instantly comforted.

"Let's go home home and talk," he said and wrapped an arm around my shoulders.

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I sat on the couch at home with Ashton. I rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. "What happened?"

"I honestly don't know. I started feeling depressed and then the anxiety set in when I told myself to stop feeling like that. I thought that maybe going for a walk would have helped." Ashton and I had made a promise not to lie to each other. Its been working really well so far. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was leaving. I was so engulfed in making myself feel better than it just slipped my mind."

"It's alright," he said softly. "Did the walk help?"

"A little bit. I'm still a bit shaky, though."

"I can tell," he said as he rubbed my shoulder. "Is there anything specific that you're anxious about?"

I got comfortable and sank into Ashton's hold. "I guess it could be the wedding. I'm just paranoid that nothing will go as planned. I mean, I know it won't be perfect. Do I want it to be perfect? Yes, but nothing ever is. I just want everything to go well, but I can't help thinking that something will go wrong like one of the brides maids backing out last minute. Or something happening to you. Or my dress not fitting me the day of the wedding."

"Babe, you got all the time in the world to plan this wedding. We've only been engaged for three months. And we made a deal not to start officially planning anything until I came back from the North American leg of the tour. All we can do now is make the plans and hope everything goes smoothly. And if something does happen, then we deal with it calmly. Okay?"

I nodded. "It's been so long since I've fallen into that pit of darkness. And it almost happened again today. I don't like that pit of darkness, Ashton. I don't want to fall in there again."

"I know you don't, sweetheart. And I won't let that happen. And if you do, I will be there to pull you out."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome. For now, how about we make something to eat and watch a movie. Then we go to bed."

"I'd like that."

Ashton kissed my head and dragged me to the kitchen with him. We made sandwiches and then we sat back down on the couch and turned on Netflix.

Ashton never took his arm from around my shoulder. When I needed him, he was there.

"I have the entire day off tomorrow. We can spend it together doing whatever."

"Sure," I smiled. "I love you, Ashton. You're the best." I kissed him softly.

"I love you, too." He said and kissed me back.