5SOS Imagines vol. 2

The Darkness Within-CH

YOUR POV

I sat on the couch staring at blankly at the TV while Orange Is The New Black played. Netflix was my go-to when my depression set in. It's better than sitting in silence and gives my mind something else to focus on other than myself and everything that's wrong with me.

But some days nothing helps at all. Today was one of those days.

I sighed and laid my head down on the armrest. Calum would be home in about an hour. I didn't know what to do with myself until then. I should probably eat. I hadn't eaten anything today. But considering my situation, I wasn't exactly in the mood to eat.

I texted Calum. He knew about my depression, but it was very rare that he ever saw me like this. I gave him a brief explanation and told him I didn't feel well when I texted him. Usually there was a follow up question like "what's wrong" or "what doesn't feel good" but he didn't ask any of those. I suspect it was because he saw a bit of it this morning. Normally, I'm very cheerful and wish him a good day at work, but today I was quiet and just told him I loved him.

He told me that he'd be home soon to take care of me. I shut the TV off and went up to my room. I laid down on the bed and drifted off to sleep.

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I woke up to the bed dipping. My eyes fluttered open and landed on my boyfriend. He immediately took me into his arms. My head rested on his chest while he stroked my hair soothingly.

"How are you feeling," he asked me, his voice rumbling in his chest.

"I don't know anymore," I mumbled. I felt Calum's arms tighten around me. He placed a kiss to the top of my head.

"Get dressed," he said.

"Why?"

"We're gonna go out. You need some cheering up. Don't defy me, sweetheart. You might get punished later," he said giving my butt a squeeze. I loved cheeky Calum. He's so adorable when he get's like that. I smiled and let out a small chuckle. "There's that beautiful smile," he said and tilted my chin up. He placed a soft kissed to my lips. "Now, c'mon. I'm gonna take you to get ice cream."

He helped me up and I turned to the dresser. I slipped out of my sweatpants and band tee and put on my jeans. I was looking for a clean shirt when Calum came back in the room. He stood behind me and placed his hands on my bare waist. He pulled my back against his chest and placed a kiss on my neck. "I love you," he said to me.

"I love you too."

"Here," he said and turned to the closet. "Wear this." He handed me one of his old soccer jerseys. I smiled and slipped it on.

We left the house once I had my shoes on and drove to our favorite ice cream shop. As we stood in line, Calum kept an arm around my waist. He told jokes that were terrible. I laughed at them because they were so stupid that they were actually funny. Calum knew they were bad jokes, but he was just trying to make me smile. And it was working.

I ordered a sundae, and so did Calum. We sat down at a table and ate.

"You'll never believe what happened to Michael today," he said.

"Tell me," I said.

"He went to plug his guitar into the amp and it shocked him."

"No way!"

"I'm serious! He ended up sitting on the couch for a half hour with ice on his hand."

"Why did that happen?"

"The amp was on the wrong setting," he laughed.

"Good job, Clifford," I laughed with him. Calum looked at me as I laughed. His chocolate brown eyes staring lovingly. "What?"

"Nothing. You're just so beautiful," he said simply. I felt my face turn warm. "You know," he started, "I know it's hard for you to discuss what happens because you don't really know why yourself. But the minute you feel like talking, you come to me. If I'm not around, you call me, or text me. I don't care if you leave a long, detailed voicemail, or a super lengthy message. I want you to tell me."

I nodded. "I promise I will. Thank you, Calum. Thank you for everything. I love you."

"I love you too, baby girl," he said, a smile creeping onto his face. "How about we go back home and relax; watch a movie."

"I'd love that."

We finished our sundaes and walked back to the car. We drove home and 'relaxing' had a different meaning that day.