5SOS Imagines vol. 2

If I'm Lucky (song preference)- blurb 4/4

ASHTON

Hello, Sunshine, or what's your name today? Well you look so graceful but I'm not faithful, do you really wanna be with me?

It's true Ashton wasn't the most perfect boyfriend in the world. But he tried, and he tried really hard and that's all that mattered to you. It's hard when he's halfway around the world from you a majority of the year, but that didn't stop you from loving him.

"Babe," Ashton said.

"Yeah?"

"Why... Why are you with me?"

You sighed and put your phone down. This wouldn't be the first time you two had this conversation. "Ash, are we really going to get into this again?"

"Yes, (y/n). I'm not... faithful. I'm not saying I would cheat on you. I wouldn't cheat on anyone, but I'm gone all the time, and talking on the phone just isn't the same as when I'm with you."

"Ashton, baby look at me," you said and tilted his head to look at you. "Yes, you're gone a lot, but I don't care about that. I love you for who you are. So we talk on the phone more often than we see each other. It just makes seeing each other all that more amazing. Like, I haven't even been in the room with you for an hour and I'm struggling to keep my hands off of you," I giggled and pushed my hand under his shirt. He giggled back. "I love you, Ashton. Nothing is going to change that. And we are both strong enough to get through the hardships of a long distance relationship. Plus, when I finish the semester, I'm gonna join you guys on tour. It's hard, but it's not impossible. I'd choose you over anyone else."

"I love you so fucking much," he said and kissed my lips.

"I know," I smirked and cocked my head.

"Get in the bedroom. I've been waiting too damn long for you and I'm not gonna waste another second," he said and dragged me behind him as we stumbled to the bedroom.

CALUM:

I'm just trying to find my place in this world, and I know it's not so right to feel this way about a girl (boy), but if you stay or if you go I'm right there with you but you know that I'm looking for more than a pretty smile and if I'm lucky you can stay for a while, but if you stay or if you go, I'm just hanging on again.

Calum and you had been dating for a while now. You liked each other very much, but you tried to keep yourself closed off a little bit because every time you got close to a guy, something happened and you were left in the dust. You were a bit lost as a person. You weren't quite sure where you were going or what you wanted to do with your life. The one thing you were sure about was Calum. But is it right to feel this way about him? After all the bullshit you've been through with guys before? You thought to yourself quietly. You most definitely want more than just a fuck buddy, or someone to do something with. You want a soul mate. And you were positive that Calum was the one, but you were scared to say anything. Lucky for you, he said it first.

You were walking along the beach. You had just had dinner before and were letting your food settle. You two found a bench and sat down. You both sat there staring at the ocean, silence hanging over you. Calum spoke first. "Where is this going?" This took you a bit by surprise. "I mean, I love what we have. I love our dinner dates and our spontaneous trips to a different dessert shop every week. But I want a little more... I like you a lot, (y/n). But you seem a little closed off, and I'm wondering if it's because you don't feel the same way about me."

You took a deep breath. "It's the exact opposite, actually. I like you more than I've ever liked anybody in my entire life. But I'm just scared. I've purposely kept certain parts of myself closed off because every fucking time I've gotten close to the one I like... shit happens and I'm told these lies and then I'm left laying in the dust alone. If something like that happened with us, I was just trying to save myself form a bigger heartbreak. But closed off or not, it was inevitable because I fell for you hard, and fast. I want more too. I was just afraid to say anything. I'm so lost with myself as it is. I was afraid you wouldn't want to pick up the pieces when I broke completely."