I know now what it means to be vulnerable
Eyes skimming over my body, looking for all my failures and mistakes
I hate that I have done it, but I cannot blame my 14-year old self. She didn't care about the future, because she didn't think there would be a future. She had to do what was necessary to survive.
Und ich finde mich damit ab, wieder einsam zu sein. Ich bin es immer.
There is a silence louder than a thousand words and everything everyone else has said to me becomes meaningless.
Have I changed? Maybe, but I don't want to. I want to stay the same. I don't want to kill the person that I was.
All these thoughts and all these feelings, although I know it, it still hurts.
What is a home? A place where you're recognized, but are you? Is there a home? Is staying with the outcasts really a way, or is there just no other?
Guess it's freedom, guess I like it, but it comes at a price.
Looking at myself and all I think is "that's not me"
In einem Moment gleitet alles aus meinen Händen. Was ich war und was ich liebte und was mir wichtig war. Was ich erreicht habe, zerspringt auf dem kalten Boden, auf den ich sinke.
Es ruft nach mir, zurückzukehren zu meinen Träumen. Es würde mir gut tun und ich weiß es und vermisse sie. Und doch zögere ich wie vor jeder guten Entscheidung.
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Heute kommen viele Gefühle zusammen. Hoffnung und Angst und alter Schmerz. Leben ist irgendwie surreal. Aber wir werden sehen, wie es weitergeht.
Love you💜
~Kat
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Alone
PoesíaI may have been broken, but I'm still alive. Defiance runs through my veins. You did not get to destroy me, nor will you. ~ Sprüche, Gedanken und Ähnliches ‼️Behandelt teilweise sensible Themen wie Selbstverletzung und Suizidgedanken‼️ ❕Teilweise au...
