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Chapter 41- Hyunjin's Diary

It's hard to put into words how much has changed over these past two years. If you'd told me back then that I'd be sitting here, writing about the person who has become my everything, I wouldn't have believed you. Life has a funny way of surprising us when we least expect it.

Felix. Just his name fills me with warmth. Being with him is like finally stepping into the sunlight after wandering in the dark for so long. It's not just the big moments that define us-it's the little things, too. The way he laughs at my terrible jokes, the way he gets excited over the smallest details in his designs, or the way he always finds a reason to hold my hand, even when we're just sitting on the couch.

Last week, we went on a company retreat to Hawaii. Officially, it was labeled as a "team-building" trip, but for me, it was an opportunity to spend time with Felix in a setting that felt like paradise.

The employees were smitten with him, of course. How could they not be? Felix has this natural charm that draws people in. Everywhere we went, there were whispers about how "cute" we were together. I didn't mind. In fact, I loved it! watching them gush over Felix and knowing he's mine.

The team-building exercises were fun, but the real highlights were the quiet moments we stole for ourselves. Late-night walks along the beach, the sand cool beneath our feet as the waves brushed against the shore. Felix would talk about his dreams about expanding his company and creating designs that would change the industry and I'd listen, mesmerized by his passion.

One night stood out above the rest. The people of the marketing department had organized a luau, complete with music, dancing, and an endless feast. Somehow, Felix convinced me to join the music and we ended up doing karaoke right then and there. The employees were cheering, laughing, and taking videos, but at that moment, it felt like it was just the two of us.

We were exploring the island together when we weren't at the retreat events. Felix dragged me to a sunrise hike one morning, and though I complained about the early hour, I'll admit it was worth it. Standing at the summit, watching the sky light up in shades of pink and gold, I felt a peace I hadn't known I needed.

Now that we're back home, I find myself thinking about the future more often. We have talked about what we want. Felix dreams of a place with a big kitchen where he can experiment with his recipes, while I just want a space that feels like us.

We've also talked about the smaller things like what our days might look like years from now, and what kind of traditions we want to create. Felix brought up the idea of adopting a dog, and I couldn't help but laugh as he listed all the possible breeds. "A golden retriever," he'd said, "because they're friendly, just like you."

Sometimes, I wonder how we got so lucky. We've grown so much as a couple and as individuals. Felix's company is soaring and he's become a force in the fashion industry, with designs that are taking the world by storm. And my career...well, it feels like I've finally found my footing. The awards are nice, sure, but they pale in comparison to the support I feel from Felix. He's my biggest cheerleader, always reminding me that I'm capable of more than I think.

I've also started to mend things with my parents. It wasn't easy at first, there were years of misunderstandings and unspoken words to unravel. But Felix encouraged me to take the first step, and I'm glad I did. Sitting down with them, sharing stories about my life and my love for Felix, felt like a weight lifting off my shoulders. They've even expressed interest in meeting him properly, which is something I never thought I'd see.

Felix and I have been going on more dates lately, too. It feels like we're making up for lost time, even though we've been together for so long now. From quiet dinners at home to road trips, every moment feels special because it's with him.

One of my favorite memories from these past weeks was when we had a picnic by the river. Felix packed all my favorite foods, and we spent the afternoon lying on a blanket, watching the clouds drift by. He fell asleep at one point, his head resting on my chest, and I couldn't help but think about how lucky I am to have him in my life.

And yet, it's not just the happy moments that make us, us. We've had our challenges, our disagreements, our late-night talks where we had to work through the tough stuff. But every time, we've come out stronger, and more connected. Felix has taught me that love isn't about perfection; it's about showing up, even when it's hard, and choosing each other every single day.

I don't know how, but it feels as if I made myself capable of loving just by watching him be himself.

He's more than my life and I would willingly jump into a fire just so he knows he's my muse, my partner, my everything.

The future still feels uncertain in many ways, but one thing I know for sure: whatever comes next, we'll face it together. Because with Felix by my side, there's nothing I can't handle.

He's my love, my light, my future.

and a dream that I thought I'd never have.

a quiet place,

yet a soul like busy set.

someone I dream of getting old with,

yet laughing like kids.