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Chapter 47

Felix's grip on my wrist was tight and hesitant but desperate like he was clinging to something fragile. His fingers trembled, his breathing uneven, and I could feel the tension radiating from him, thick like an unseen fog.

"I want to tell you everything," he whispered.

My heart stopped beating for a moment.

For weeks, I had been trying to figure out what was wrong. I had spent restless nights racking my brain for answers, for some explanation for the distance between us, for the shift in Felix's behavior that I couldn't ignore. And now, in the dim glow of our bedroom, I was finally about to get the truth.

"I've been getting death threats..."

The words dropped like lead into the space between us. My entire body tensed, every muscle locking up as my mind struggled to process what I had just heard.

Felix swallowed hard, his voice barely above a whisper. "Not just a few. Not just from one person. It's... an organization. A whole group of people who—" He exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair "who...are obsessed with you" 

I was taken aback. Words seemed insufficient to explain my feelings, and sentences seemed unable to deliver every message I wanted to say.

"They're obsessed and they think I'm... not good enough for you. That I'm ruining your image. That you'd be better off without me." His breath hitched, and he let out a soft sigh, the one where you're finally emptying every feeling inside you "They call me a stain on your career. They say I'm holding you back. That I don't deserve to be next to you."

I frowned, caught off guard. "What?"

Something inside me snapped.

"At first, I ignored them. I mean, I've dealt with hate before because it comes with the industry, right? But this time... it's different."

I understood Felix's actions now. what could he even do in that situation? he was measuring his steps carefully as if not to step on a single trap that would hurt anyone.

I was furious.

Felix must have seen the shift in my expression because he rushed to explain, his voice rising slightly in panic. "I didn't tell you because I didn't want to involve you. They said if I talked, they'd take matters into their own hands. And I just... I didn't want to risk it. So I distanced myself." He exhaled shakily. "I thought maybe if they saw us less together, they'd stop. That they'd leave me alone."

I reached forward, gripping his hands, forcing him to look at me. "So you thought ignoring me, pushing me away, would fix this?"

Felix let out a sob, his words barely coming out "I didn't know what else to do. I felt like anything I did would just make things worse. So I deleted the messages. I tried to pretend it wasn't happening. But it was, and it was eating me alive. I couldn't focus, I couldn't sleep, I just—I didn't want you to see how scared I was—scared of losing you, harming you, scared of everything I would do to you."

I exhaled sharply, running a hand down my face, trying to ground myself before the anger building inside me exploded. Not at him but at the people who had done this.

He had been carrying all of this alone.

He had been suffering, in silence, trying to keep me safe.

The thought made me feel like I had been punched in the gut.

"I reached out to Yuri and Yulbi," Felix admitted after a long pause. "I didn't know what else to do. I didn't even tell them everything at first, just that something was wrong. But they figured it out, and they told me I needed to tell you."

I shook my head, unable to hide the raw frustration in my voice. "And instead of telling me, you pretended to be asleep?"

Felix gave me a guilty look, lips pressed together tightly. "...I didn't know how to bring it up." He let out a slow breath, his shoulders slumping. " Because what if I really am ruining things for you? What if I'm just making things harder? I mean... you've worked your whole life to get where you are. What if—"

"Don't," I cut him off, my grip tightening. "Don't even finish that sentence."

Felix blinked at me, startled.

I shook my head, anger finding it difficult to steady down. "You think I care about any of that? Do you think I'd just give you up for something that might get broken and replaced in a second? For some delusional fans who think they know what's best for me?" 

I took a deep breath, trying to steady the fire in my chest. "Felix, listen to me, please. You are not ruining anything. You are not holding me back. You are not a stain on my career. you are the one who made me worthy of having a home, a place to settle in when a storm takes over, and someone I would die a thousand times for."

His lower lip trembled slightly, and for a moment, he stared at me, as if he wanted to believe my words yet had no idea how to.

I cupped his face, forcing him to hold my gaze. "You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. And if they think replacing you would make my career flourish or have a good reputation then I don't want that career—not even in a hundred lifetimes."

Felix let out a shaky breath, his eyes glistening with forced fear and tears altogether.

I didn't say anything else. I just pulled him into my arms, holding him as tightly as I could. His body tensed for a split second before finally, finally, melting into me. He buried his face into my shoulder, his arms wrapping around me like he was afraid I'd disappear.

We stayed like that for a long time.

I couldn't let him go— I didn't want to.

"Can you stop avoiding me, though?" I asked, loosening my grip.

he nodded, getting even closer to me "Mhm" he hummed.

I pulled him more towards me, making him surprised before finally pressing a kiss to his lips. he immediately repeated my action and I slipped into bed with him, hugging him with all my might.

A/N

not much angst cuz I can't write that well. hope you enjoyed this though!!