The Love We Found

Chapter 5

in the video pretend the QB doesn't get up and pretend it's blue and silver uniforms for the homecoming game,

Axel's POV:

       For the past two days I have been avoiding Madison and Grant, If I saw them in the halls I would turn and walk the other way. At practice I've been calling Grant only by his number and keeping it strictly about the plays.

"34, move to the left, keep my blind side guarded."

         In classes I've moved my seats so that I'm not sitting in the seat next to them. I've been getting a ride to school from my dad, and walking home with earphones in blasting music. I leave practice as soon as its over pausing to change and I shower at home so I can avoid Grant trying to give me a ride.  Today was Friday, the day of homecoming and the day I have to tell Grant my decision. Which I'm still struggling with. I want to try being with him, but at the same time I haven't ever been in a relationship, and I know that I will ruin everything if I agree to this. I know that we will be forced to get married whether its our decision or not.

"Hey, Dad?" I yelled running down the stairs.

"What's up, kiddo?"

I groaned. "First don't call me that, second I wanted to run to school today, you know its the big day for pretty much everything. I need to calm down and running helps me think. Could you bring my bag to Madison and have her leave my stuff at my locker, and make sure she grabs my pills, Grant's had them for the past few days."

"You haven't been taking them? We gave Grant a bottle of them to have just in case, yours is in the bathroom cabinet down here."

"oh.. I didn't know that."

"You haven't seemed like you've been off them the past two days. Everything's been pretty mellow with you."

"I've had a lot on my mind."

"Like?"

"Everything?"

"That's a good place to start. Let me get Daddy first and we call all talk real quick."

I nodded. He looked surprised I didn't say anything about him saying he'll get daddy instead of Father. At this point I didn't care and I know it bothers him. When they walked back into the living room they took a seat on one couch while I was on the other.

"So what's going on?"

"The day I found out about the arranged marriage, I tried to stay away from Grant but Mads got made and pretty much told Grant that he lets me get away with everything and he needed to step it up and take charge. So when she left he sat on my lap and we kissed. Dad walked in on it and I was embarrassed. We made a deal that I would have until after the game to make y decision but we were supposed to be platonic. But for movie night I just wanted to see what would have been going on had we been dating the whole time. And we made out. We feel asleep together and everyone saw what happened in the morning. I had dad bring me to school because Grant broke in to my room and had me pressed against the wall with my legs around his waist. At school, I beat up Jaxon because he was calling me a fag, and then Grant stopped me and I wasn't taking my pills so I got even more mad and pretty much I thought it was Madison and Grant's fault that people saw me as gay. Grant tried to stop me when I stormed off and I flipped on him calling him a fag and a faggot, he got pissed after I tried to hit him and said it when he warned me not to. He took me outside to his car and basically when I tried to get away he pressed our hips together and it felt good, He was kissing me on the neck and I don't know what happened I was like in a daze and we were in his car heading to his house. I was trying not to cry and he just was squeezing my thigh. When I explained what happened after he gave me my pill he understood but I still felt like shit. I tried to get him to punch me as payback but he wouldn't. We ended up making out and he... he uh. he gave me a blow job and I gave him a hand job. Then I sorta freaked out because I liked it and got mad at him because he broke his promise to give me time and I cried in the shower. He comforted me and then we went back to school and had practice. After he drove me home I've been completely avoiding both Grant and Madison. I changed seats, I skip lunch, I walk home from practice and shower here, I don't answer their texts or phone calls. I just know that if I agree, I'll ruin it. I always ruin everything." I had started crying when I was explaining what happened at the school and what I said to Grant.