Somniphobia

Chapter 41. "Don't panic princess."

Aria POV
"Okay I've got the results from the urine. I've got some good and amazing news for you both." Dr Ron spoke up getting both our attention. "Okay sounds good what's the good news?" Caleb asked him.

"Good news is, she is fine there's no signs of her eating anything bad other than maybe she's getting sensitive to certain foods. Such as meat, or even certain smells."

He explained to us. "Okay and why or how did she become sensitive to these things so suddenly?" Caleb asked curiously and confused.

"Well that could be because she's pregnant. Congratulations Mr and Mrs Blackwood." He replied.

"Than-..." Caleb began to thank him but went quiet suddenly while I stayed completely still on his lap, scared and shocked at what just came out of Dr Rons mouth.

I was only eighteen what if he doesn't want the baby? Or worse what if he kicks me out his house and leaves me homeless?

Where will I go? What will I do? I couldn't help but panic and frighten myself with all the possibilities of what he might do.

We did have a conversation about having kids but I know we weren't thinking of having any this soon into our relationship. I was scared and losing my mind I didn't know what to do or think.

I felt lost almost paralyzed as my mind went spiraling with every assumption that he may do to me. What if he forces me to abort the baby? I-..I... I don't think I'll be able to do it.

I don't have the heart or ability to abort my baby. I know maybe I was thinking too much into it but there was no way I could just abort my first ever baby.

I know I would regret that decision for the rest of my life.

"Come again. What did you just say?" Caleb asked Dr Ron to repeat himself. "Mrs Blackwood is pregnant, that is why she has been vomiting and more sensitive to smells and foods." Dr Ron explained once more.

Tears rushed down my cheeks as I began to panic even more out of fear of how he was going to react to me being pregnant with his baby.

I got up from off his lap quickly running out of his bedroom. "Aria!" I heard him yell my government name which made me run even faster out of fear.

I ran towards my playroom, I closed the door quickly and locked it running towards the farthest corner of the room. I got onto the floor curling up into a ball my whole body trembling in terror as I sobbed silently.

There was no way I was going to be able to face him or hear him tell me he doesn't want this baby. He already sounded so angry the last thing I want to do is anger him even more to the point he wants to hurt me like everyone else does.

My heart throbbing as it pounded against my chest like it wanted to burst out of my chest. I haven't felt this scared since I left my parents house I had so much fear inside of me right now.

I covered my ears with my hands as I heard him knocking on the door telling me to open the door. I knew he was angry and the last thing I was going to do was open that door just to end up hurt physically or mentally.

He was banging on the door so loud I felt the entire room shake. I didn't know if it was just me cause I was trembling in fear or if he really was just being so loud.

I don't know and I didn't want to find out I was so scared. I needed to run away but where would I go? I can't be homeless and pregnant. Why did I let this happen, I should have been more careful and mature about this.

I didn't even realize we weren't using a condom at all the whole time. How could I have not noticed? I was being so stupid I really was.

There were so many times I could have noticed he wasn't using a condom but I somehow chose to not realize it.