Somniphobia

Chapter 66. Too much?

Warning!!! This chapter may trigger some readers. If you are suicidal or not in the right mental state i suggest you skip this chapter. You have been warned read at your own risk!!!!

Aria POV
I woke up with tears streaming down my cheeks heavily from the horrifying nightmare I just had. I could hardly catch my breath as I sobbed silently to not wake up Caleb for the fourth time tonight. 

I pulled the blanket off myself and carefully got out of the bed as I struggled to breath from how badly I was crying and trying not to wake Caleb.

I made my way towards the bathroom quietly. I closed the door and let out an uncontrollable sob. My breathing shallow as I suffocated myself with my own tears. My body was shaking and I could hardly stand on my own feet anymore.

I allowed myself to sink down onto the floor before my legs gave out and I fell. My chest felt tight as I struggled regaining my breath. I knew if I didn't calm down soon I would have a panic attack.

I tried taking a deep breath but instead my chest tightened even more making it harder for me to breathe. I coughed loudly and uncontrollably as I struggled stabilizing my breathing.

"Aria." I heard Caleb's panicked voice as he opened the bathroom door with a worried and concerned expression on his face. I crawled over to him knowing he would be able to help me breathe properly.

I couldn't speak but I knew he would figure out what I needed. He picked me up from off the bathroom floor and quickly turned on the sink, splashing cold water onto my face which instantly allowed me to breathe.

I began to hyperventilate holding onto him tightly. "Breathe princess, take a deep breath in and slowly let it out baby." He instructed me.

I tried my best to do as he said but I couldn't remember how to breath or catch my breath. My mind was foggy and all over the place I couldn't think straight.

He pulled my head down onto his chest I could hear his heart beating through his chest against my ear. "Listen to me breathe and I want you to copy me, okay princess?" He instructed me and all I could do was nod my head.

I listened to him take a deep breath and I did the same and then slowly let it out the same way he was. I copied him until my mind calmed and I could think more clearly. "Just like that baby, nice and slow deep breaths." He said in a soft soothing tone.

I sobbed against his chest while taking deep breaths over and over again so I wouldn't have a panic attack. "D-Da-... d-daddy." I sobbed while hugging him tightly needing all his comfort.

"I'm here princess." He whispered to me soothingly while rubbing my back comfortingly. "Tell daddy what's wrong baby." He urged me in a soft comforting tone while wiping my tears away from my face.

I hugged him tighter snuffling into his neck. "Use your words baby." He encouraged me. "I-I'm s-scared d-daddy." I cried out to him. "Scared of what?" He asked concerned. "I-I'm s-scared o-of e-everything. J-Just d-don't l-leave m-me p-please."

I sobbed. All of Elizabeth's and Andrew's cruel words kept replaying in my mind over and over again nonstop. No matter how many times I tried to ignore their mean words towards me I couldn't.

I hated cause I couldn't just be normal I had to be this big, mature girl that did and knew everything when all I wanted was to be cared for. I just wanted to be treated with care and kindness.

I had to grow up so fast and do things I never wanted to but I was forced to. Now I can't comprehend why I act so childish and immature.

I feel so weird, stupid, and embarrassing. I was so naive all these bad dreams I keep having of Elizabeth and Andrew torturing me were all signs that I was worthless and no one would ever put up with my bullshit.