Too confuse (Too Innocent book 2) JiaMich Fan Fiction COMPLETED

Chapter 56

JIA'S POV

I had lunch with Bea and her family. Actually, the whole team had lunch together nasa iisang resto lang naman kami but I'm with Bea and her family sa table.

Well, for the record everyone seems happy, all were smiling and laughing, but then, I know we're not. We're just doing it because Bea wants it. And this time it's for Bea din.

After that we tried some water activities na tawa lang ng tawa si Bea dahil sigaw lang naman ako ng sigaw. Hindi kasi ako makatayo sa surfing board.

Mag didilim na din ng natapos kami. Naka schedule na din kasi kaming umuwi bukas. Ang iba ay nagikot ikot na. While si Bea ay may pinaplano ata.

So after namin magayos ng sarili and gamit (cus' Bea insisted that we should) ay bumaba ulit kami.

Magkatabi kami ngayon na naglalakad sa tabing dagat. Nakakapanibago dahil tahimik si Bea na ang maririnig lang ay ang hampas ng alon.

Then we reached a part of the beach na wala pang resort sa likod, mas tahimik dito.

Maya maya ay napansin ko ang isang cloth na naka ayos sa buhangin with candles around it.

Napatingin ako kay Bea na nakangiti nagulat na lang ako ng bigyan niya ako ng bulaklak na hindi ko alam kung saan galing dahil wala naman siyang hawak kanina.

We settled in the cloth, naka indian seat kami pareho at pinagmamasdan lang din ang araw na palubog na.

And when it did ay nabasag na ang katahimikan na kanina pa bumabalot sa amin.

"One of my goals in life is to watch the sunset with the person I love. And I thought I'll never achieved it cus' my mindset when I did that lists of goals is I'll be the best friend of that person"

"I know you know this and you repeatedly tell this story to me when I had amnesia, but I tell you this again, I am really thankful for that friend who insisted to watch the volleyball game a week after I go out the hospital. Her plan was to cheer me up and tell me La Salle wants me for the team. I thought I've been the happiest person back then, but I'm wrong, after thinking everything happens, I know I'm not genuinely happy because on that same day, I saw you and I had the chance to at least hear your voice. I've been telling this to the people I've talked this day, but I'll tell you this, if there's one good effect that accident has given me, that is, kung hindi ako tanga nun at kung gusto ko mabuhay pa after the accident ay siguro hindi naisipan ng kaibigan ko na kailangan niya akong i cheer up, kung hindi niya ako naisipang ayain ng araw na iyon ay hindi kita makikita and siguro I won't be struck with the arrow of cupid if that accident won't happen"

"Before I asked, why that thing happened to me, why does that bullet needs to go inside my brain? Now I have the answers, maybe because that even pushed me to become more passionate on some things. Hindi ko siguro pa planuhin na pumunta ng Ateneo, hindi ko siguro lalakasan ang loob ko na kausapin ka sa CR, hindi ko siguro hihingin yung number mo. And with all that, siguro hindi tayo naging mag kaibigan"

"I told you my mindset coming in Ateneo was to be your bestfriend, and bestfriend only. I told this to Mich and ate Ly and ate Den.. I'm the number one JiaMich shipper"

Napatingin ako sakanya, with wide eyes, not knowing everything she's saying. Hearing that JiaMich when we're together is weird.

"I'll be lying if I told you I don't want to be with you. That I don't want more that just friends or bestfriends. But that is beyond what I planned. Yep, I was hurt whenever I saw you looking at Mich the way I want you to look at me. But as I said, I know my place and I know what I am to you, so being your girlfriend is too much, it's not what I expected and I know this is not real.."

After hearing those ay hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinasabi niya. Pinaramdam ko ba sakanya na hindi ko siya mahal? Pero bakit? Inalagaan ko naman siya, mahal ko siya, hindi pa ba iyon sapat?

"It's not you Jia. It's me, I know everything. Remember before I cross that road? I told you I'm doing everything para magising ka sa katotohanan na duwag si Mich at hindi ka niya kayang ipaglaban. I know that moment I also crossed the boundary of being your bestfriend and the other side of me loving you"

"Believe me when I say na nagulat talaga ako nung nagising ako at may bago akong nalaman na tayo na. Pero I know na naging masaya ako. Masaya ako with you Ji. Pero kasi alam ko naman kasi sa sarili ko na hindi ako ang mahal mo. Oo siguro mahal mo ako, you care for me but you did as your best friend and nothing more. And also believe me when I say na it's okay na ganun lang. Tanggap ko naman na eh"

"Holding your hand, kissing your lips, looking at you with the thought of you're mine, that is my dream ever since I saw you, and just a month ago, I got the chance to do it to you, even without my memory I felt complete, I felt the happiest person alive considering I have an amnesia and feeling awful whenever my head hurts. Now I know and remember everything, I should be mad, I want to tell myself you're really mine because of sympathy, because she told you so, but I know even maybe half of it is true, you did everything for me, you did love me, not just the way I love you"

"Masakit sabihin to sa taong mahal ko, mahirap, pero alam ko na wala na akong oras, Jia, thank you, thank you for everything, thank you kasi kahit alam ko na si Mich naman yung nasa puso mo, nag sacrifice ka for me, you took care of me, you did treat me as your own, I am forever grateful for that, kahit wala na ako, gusto kong sabihin sayo na thankful pa din ako. I love you with all of me Jia, and I know you tried to give it back, you didn't, but I understand, I know, but you can't. But it didn't let me love you less, I even love you more considering you did it for me because you wanted me to be happy. I don't know how to repay you, and I know I'm one of the reason you're not getting your happy ever after with Mich, but I want you to have it, and I know after I'm gone you can, you'll be happy with her, Kasabay ng pagtanggap ko na mawawala na ako ay ang pagtanggap ko na hindi talaga ako ang tao para sayo, yung taong unang makikita mo sa pag gising mo, yung taong mamahalin mo hanggang sa dulo. I know that person is Mich, and I'll be happy up there pag kayo na, dahil kayo naman talaga simula pa lang"

After she say that ay hindi ko alam ang sasabihin, feeling ko ay winelcome ko na lahat ng insekto sa bibig ko dahil ito ay nakabukas lamang.

Hindi din ako makapaniwala, hearing it all from Bea, parang hindi totoo, but what struck me the most is that her breathing is slowing down, she's just forcing herself to open her eyes. Pulling that rope para hindi siya mahulog at mawala ng tuluyan.

"This is the last stage Jia, I let go of everything and everyone, ikaw na lang ang hindi, sakto lang dahil nandito na ako, nararamdaman ko na panipis na ng panipis ang oras ko para huminga. And I'm happy kasi ikaw yung nandito, ikaw yung last na taong mama..halin k..ko"

"I don't you want to think that I don't want to kiss you right now because I believe my last kiss should be the one who truly loves me like the way I love. No, it's not it" Sabi niya then she pulled me to kiss on my forehead.

"I want to kiss you the..re. Because, people said that a kiss on the fore..head is the true testimon..y of true love and worth of.. millions in.. the lips"

"Bea.." Pagsisimula ko but she covered my lips with her finger then kissed my forehead again.

"That's.. what I want to hear last.. Your voice, I did.. it. I kn..ow I just let you..go" This time, she's breathing heavy. I'm starting to be nervous. I want to get my phone and call someone for help, or just scream for help.

But I can't move. It's like what I want to do right now is stay on that position where Bea is kissing me on my forehead, her arms around me. I want to cherish this.

"This.. is it... I.." She caress my cheeks.

I wanted to scream, tell her not yet, tell her I'm not yet ready. I wanted to cry but I can't, I want to get her back here, to prolong her, but I know I also can't.

This is the time I'll give everything not to come. But yet, here it is.

She smiled like it's not happening, like she's not on the verge of.. dying.

She smiled one last time, and with her last breath I heard her say "I love you Jia"

A/N: Took me long to upload this cus' it hurts 💔 Masakit guys! 😭 btw Summer Daze on my profile please 😁