Always start over

Shelby was right.

I got up from my bed and went downstairs and started to make breakfast .
When I was done Shelby and will came to the kitchen as I started to set the table up.
"thank you Rachel. I have a question" said will with a smile."I thought you were leaving"
"Well I was going to but someone stopped me." I responded as will tilted his head.
"Who" he asked as he started to eat.
"Jesse St James " Shelby said as will looked at me weirdly.
"I thought you were done with him" will said as I smiled.
"Same but we met up the other day... Stuff happened and I guess we are together now " I said as I took a bite of my pancake.
In a few minutes or so someone knocks on the door.
Once I opened the door I see this random guy with glasses on ,all dressed up.
"Hi are you ms.Rachel Berry?"the guy asked with a smile.
"Yes" I answered as he walked in and sat on the coach.
"Good. I'm a news producing on channel 9. I have a new show coming out and I want it to star you... I want it to be called That's So Rachel"the guy said as he used a hand movement and slowly past his hand above his face... He was sort of making a rainbow I guess.
"Oh wow that's great when do I audition?" I asked.
"Next week" he said as I smiled.
Im busy next week with funny girl...But maybe I can pretend to be sick..
"Yes sure ,where?"
"Hollywood of course  " the guy said as he got up and walked out the house as I looked down once he left.
"Rachel what were you thinking" Shelby said as she walked to me.
"I wasn't really" I said as I looked at Shelby.
"Don't you have to do funny girl next week?" Shelby asked as I looked down and nodded.
"Yes but I can pretend to be sick for a few and then I'll come back and----" Shelby cuts me off.
"Rachel .....I don't think this is a good idea" Shelby said as she grinned a bit.
"But---" Shelby cuts me off once more.
"Think about it babe" said Shelby as she walks away and goes the kitchen.
I mean maybe Shelby is right but I mean... I'm a good lier I can never lose my job or anything.
------after the audition I go back to New York and the first thing you know.....I get called to the directors office.
"RACHEL BERRY WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!!" He yelled
"Well I wasn't really-----" I said as he cuts me off.
My mom said the same thing.
"SNEAKING OUT AND GOING TO AN AUDITION ARE... YOU SERIOUS!!! RACHEL IM SORRY BUT YOUVE MIST TO MUCH, YOU ARE FIRED!!" He yelled as I started to breath heavily.
"Get out of my office please"he pointed at the door as I got up and left.
I ran out of the theater and started to sing. 'Cue the rain.'by well Lea Michele.
How many times have I driven this road
On my way home
It's always the same
So many people just stand in the line
They're chasing the lights
But losing their way
And I find myself looking for you
Yeah, I find myself looking for you, looking for you

The city was on fire for us
We would've died for us
Up in flames
Cue the rain
In my heart little sparks everywhere that you are
Up in flames
Cue the rain

Head lights and tail lights they all look the same
We come and we go
Need something to chase
Hard to remember what we left behind
But you're hand in mine is hard to erase
And I find myself looking for you
Yeah, I find myself looking for you, looking for you

The city was on fire for us
We would've died for us
Up in flames
Cue the rain
In my heart little sparks everywhere that you are
Up in flames
Cue the rain

And I'll stay, yeah, anything but okay
And I'll fade tonight

The city was on fire for us
We would've died for us
Up in flames
Cue the rain
Cue the rain

Why can't I stay?
Save it away

And I find myself looking for you
Yeah, I find myself looking for you

The city was on fire for us
We would've died for us
Up in flames
Cue the rain
In my heart little sparks everywhere that you are
Up in flames
Cue the rain

And I'll stay, yeah, anything but okay
And I'll fade tonight

The city was on fire for us
We would've died for us
Up in flames
Cue the rain.
When I was finished singing I went back on the train... After that on the plain.
I'm going back to Hollywood.
~>~MONTHS LATER ~>~
"Rachel" said the producer of that's so Rachel. We have gotten very bad reviews for our your new show That's so Rachel... I'm fired and well you are too" he said as he got up and walked to the door.
"Get ready.... You leave today"
I started to cry as I looked to the ground.
Cory I need you right now!.
I got up and walked out. I took my gold star and started to sing brave by Idina Menzel .

Don't know just where I'm going
And tomorrow, it's a little overwhelming
And the air is cold
And I'm not the same anymore
I've been running in your direction
For to long now
I've lost my own reflection
And I can't look down
If you're not there to catch me when I fall.

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave

All along all I ever wanted, was to be the light
When your life was daunting
But I can't see mine
When I feel as though you're pushing me away
Well who's to blame, are we making the right choices
Cause we can't be sure if we're hearing our own voices
As we close the door even though we are so desperate to stay

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave

And I might still cry
And I might still bleed
These thorns in my side
This heart on my sleeve
And lightening may strike
This ground at my feet
And I might still crash
But I still believe

This is the moment I stand here all alone
With everything I have inside, everything I own
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave
If this is the last time before we say goodbye
At least it's the first day of the rest of my life
I can't be afraid
Cause it's my turn to be brave.
- I got my box that had everything in it and I walked out.
What am I gonna do with my life now..I guess I have to go back to Ohio.
~>~ when I arrived at Ohio it was like 4:00am.
I arrived at moms house at like 5 something... I wasn't really looking at the time.
I still had the key so I opened the door and and softly closed it once I walked in.
I sat on the coach and started to cry and once I was about to go to my room I see Shelby looking at me by the staircase.
Shelby comes and hugs me tight.
"Rach what's wrong?" Asked Shelby .
"I LOST EVERYTHING MOM!!!MY CAREER !! EVERYTHING!! I GOT FIRED FROM FUNNY GIRL!!AND THEN THE TV SHOW HAD BAD REVIEWS!!!MOM WHAT AM I GONNA DO NEXT!I LOST FINN, FUNNY GIRL, THATS SO RACHEL, AND SOONER OR LATER I MIGHT JUST LOOSE EVERYTHING... I WILL NEVER BE ON BROADWAY... OR ON TV.. "I cried as Shelby looked surprised.
"Rachel don't say that!" Shelby said as I burst into tears.
Shelby grabs my hand and takes me to my room.
"I want you to rest... Tell me when you are ready to talk about this ....tell me when you realize that the Rachel Berry you are being right now isn't the Rachel, Berry I know... I Rachel Berry I know never gave up... She always had something to say..." Shelby said as she kissed me on the forehead and tucked me in.
"I...I love you mom" I said as I stuttered a bit
Shelby smiled" I love you to Rach " Shelby said as she turned my lamp off and walked out my room.
Finn.... I love you so much... And It would be so nice if you were here right now because really you were the only one who made me happy.
When my eyes slowly closed a
I started to see Finn walking in a path.... I called his name and he looked back. He gave me his cute smile and kept on walking.
"FINN DONT LEAVE PLEASE "I CRIED. "FIINNNN!!"
I fell to the ground and next thing you know I feel a hand on my shoulder.
-----out of the dream.
"Rachel... Rachel wake up" someone said as I turned around.
"Rachel.... "

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~TO BE CONTINUED ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WHATS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT??!
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Do you think Rachel will go back to NYADA??
Do you think Rachel will be brave enough to go back on Broadway?
Will someone offer Rachel an audition to a Broadway show?
And last but not least... Who do you think is waking Rachel up?? And what do you think would've happened if that person didn't wake her up?
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