Always start over

Im scared.

"I have decided.... And it's a yes" I said as I smiled brightly them looked down.
Am I even making the right choice?
Jesse picked my chin up and kissed me. He puts the ring on my finger and says"I love you Rachel, and I mean I understand if you regret it because it was probably really fast but----"I cut him off.
"Jesse I'm not gonna regret it I promise"I said as I smiled and kissed him on the cheek.
I sort of am regretting it... But it's only because I'm scared.
Jesse and I walk back to the apartment.
"Want to have a little drink?" Jesse asked as I nodded no.
"Pleeaaseee" Jesse said as he came closer to me. Jesse gives me a pouty face and starts to tickle me.
"Okay okay... Stop stop!!" I laughed as I pushed him away.
"I'll have a little not a lot."
(next thing you know I drink a lot and so does Jesse)
-----in a few hours I wake up finding myself naked on the bed.
I look at Jesse and quickly jump off the bed. I put my clothes back on and walked to Jesse's side of the bed.
"Jesse?" I said as I shook him to wake him up.
"Hmm" Jesse said as his eyes opened.
"What just happened" I asked as my eyes started to wide
"We got drunk" Jesse said as I started pasting back and forth .
"Are you wearing protection?" I asked as Jesse looked under the blanket .Jesse stays quiet and looks at me .
"Oh god" I said as I sat down and started to cry.
"Rachel"Jesse said as I got up and walked to the door.
"I... I'm gonna go for a little walk" I said as I leave the apartment.
What if I get pregnant!!! I'm scared!!!
In a few hours I come back and see Jesse sitting on the couch watching tv.
"Rachel I'm Sorry...." Jesse said as I smiled slightly and gave him a hug.
"It's okay" I said as he smiled back.
Jesse cuddles with me and says" what do you wanna watch"
"Hmmm anything" I said as Jesse gets up and puts a movie in.
"And by anything I know you wanna watch funny girl" Jesse plays the movie and sits next to me.
-few months pass.
Jesse and I started the new show 6 months ago and it's turning out to be the best show ever. A lot of people came to see it...Shelby didn't come but she works so I understand.
Once I got up from bed the first thing I felt was something coming up my stomach . I ran to the bathroom and started vomiting non stop.
"Rachel are you alright " Jesse asked as he went to pull my hair  back but I pushed him away.
"Does it look like I am" I cried as Jesse froze.
"I'm pregnant Jesse " I yelled as he started to paste back and forth .
"Rachel I am so sorry.... We, we can give the child away do an abortion or some thing"Jesse said as I looked at him disappointed .
"WHAT NO... JESSE IM NOT GONNA DO WHAT MY MOM DID TO ME" I cried as Jesse looked down.
"Do you even know what your mom did... Do you know that she gave you away for Money.... She was a druggy back then she had a bad life.... She was a horrible mom and she regrets what she did "Jesse said as I got up .
"How.. How do you know this" I asked as I stuttered my words.
"Shelby told me everything" Jesse said as he looked at me in the eyes.
"So she basically sold me?" I asked as Jesse shrugged.
"I don't know I guess, why don't you ask your mom" Jesse said as I nodded and got my phone.
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Guys I Probably won't be on for a whole week next week... Im going to Puerto Rico... And I'm sorry if I update to slow... I got in trouble for being on my iPad a lot instead of doing my homework... And I also have to finish packing...I'm leaving Saturday. I will try my best to update as much as I can.😔😌💖