The Two of Us❤️(Nate Garner Love Story)

Chapter 15

*Y/N's Pov*

I was walking back and forth around my room i felt like i was gonna have an anxiety attack. I can't. My head hurts so bad and advil doesn't work for shit i was shaking and i couldn't breathe correctly.

Everything was good with Nate but he was only a part of my life. The most important one.

But what about my life outside of our relationship. Its so confusing and complicated. Time is running out. I only have around 10 months left (we're in October and the school year starts in August). Yeah it seems like a long time but i know every day my mom will just keep pressuring me. But the deal with my mom was that i get a year off of college so i can figure things out in my head and deal with my problems at home with my parents. The day my dad moved out he said he only stayed with my mom because she got pregnant with me. It was probably best if i wasn't a part of their life.

I had my back to my window when i heard a sound. I quickly turned around and saw Nate climbing in.

In a second he was fully in my room and i ran towards him. I just wanted to feel okay.

"Ssh it's okay baby. I'm here now" he said. His hand was caressing my hair and I didn't have the strength to look at him.

"Come here" he said. He went to sit down on my bed and patted his lap.

I stayed in my place. I mean I can't tell him my mom doesn't want me to see him. He thought my mom was cool with him now but she was just acting the whole time. That's how two faced and stuck up she is.

"Talk to me" he said breaking the silence. I went and sat on the bed next to him and started playing with my fingers. He put his arm around me and i rested my head on his shoulder.

"I always thought your parents were supposed to be the ones who will support you no matter what and care for you more than anyone else" i said weakly and out of the blue. His grip on me tightened and i could tell he didn't have the right words to say. He was in my situation too , but with his dad.

My eyelids started to get heavy so i closed them for a while. I felt like only a couple seconds passed until Nate carried me and laid me down properly on my bed. He laid down next to me and wrapped his arm around me and i put my left leg over his as we slowly drifted to a peaceful sleep.

(2 hours later)

I woke up from my nap and noticed Nate was still asleep. I sat up and as usual i started overthinking everything again. I mean I'm going no where in life, my GPA in high school was just average and thats not good enough for UC or State. I don't have any talent either I can't sing, or dance, or play an instrument, or anything. I'm nothing. Nate is the only reason i keep going. But, maybe my mom is right, this whole time in our relationship I haven't put in much thought on what i'm gonna do in life. I don't want to leave him but i also need to focus on my life outside of our relationship more. Maybe if we spend less time together...

"Hey baby" Nate groaned a little and kissed my cheek. I didn't even feel when he moved. "How was your nap?"
"Okay"
"You don't seem okay. What's buggin' you?" He asked and started playing with my hair.

Nate grabbed my hand and started leaving little kisses on my fingers. Im just so stressed everything is annoying me right now. I pulled my hand away and started walking across my room.

"Nate maybe my mom is right" i blurted out. "Maybe we shouldn't spend as much time together so i can focus on myself too"
"Oh"
"I mean you're a humongous part of my life but, what am i gonna do? I cant live here forever and i need to figure things out in my head that occur outside of our relationship"
"Are you saying you want to break up with me?" He asked.
"No I'm just saying maybe we shouldn't see each other as much, you know"
Nate frowned and looked confused.
"No I don't" he clenched his jaw and stood up. "We were doing perfectly fine and your mom says some things to you and now you want to break up with me!" He was getting frustrated was taking things the wrong way, i thought he would understand.

"Nate you're exaggerating! I just want to figure things out in my head with what goes on in my life! I thought you would understand."
"Yeah maybe I don't" he said and started walking to the window
"Where are you going?" I didn't want him to leave me.
"Well since you want to take a break it can start right now"
"Fine." I said. His words hurt me but I didn't have the strength to stop him.

In a moment, he was gone.

What just happened? What the fuck did i just do? I fell on the ground and began to cry. This is by far the worst emotional pain i've ever felt. My nails are really long and i felt so horrible i started scratching my wrists until i left marks out of anxiety and frustration.

*Nate's Pov*

I was walking to my house and ran my hands through my hair. I didn't want to leave her. Im really hurt that she thinks its best if we take a break. I know she wanted me to understand her but i just cant. I don't understand why it's best if we take a break when I'm the one who cares about her and loves her the most.

This was our first fight. I can't believe it would lead up to this. I wanted to be there for Y/N but she didn't want me there. And her just even thinking about us breaking up damaged me the most.

I'll give Y/N time and her space to think things through. I only want the best for her and if she thinks this is it then i'll wait until shes ready to get back or dump me its her choice.