Freen POV
I saw it....
I saw it again in her eyes....
The same look that she used to give me before....
SHE IS AGAIN IN LOVE WITH ME....
I can see it in her eyes....
I can see it in her behavior....
She has confessed this multiple times....
But I acted ignorant as I am selfish and I don't want to stop us and make distance between us....
We are okay as we are now....
Why can't....she just continue hiding her feelings....?
Whenever she confessed to me, I just begged to her in my mind that "Do not confront me about your feelings Becky. You cannot love me as I am already gone from this world."
I shouldn't be here.....
"I shouldn't be doing this with her" I thought looking at her when she was asleep in my arms.
She doesn't sleep without me holding her, so I hold her.... every night.....and I continue clinging to her when I shouldn't.
I AM SORRY....
After realising her feelings for me, I thought stopping what we are doing now. But when I saw her sad face because of me, I immediately dropped that idea.
WHY I AM SO SELFISH AND USELESS!
Because of feelings, the insecurities are back. MY INSECURITY of not being ENOUGH for her is back.
Loving her hurts and not loving her also hurts.
I am already dead, so why do I still feel hurt, why do I still feel this pain....
I just foolishly pretend to be strong for her, but I am not. I am just an insecure person who can't express her feelings and can't let go of her feelings.
Becky moves in her sleep and snuggled closer to my neck, sniffing me as it seems to bring comfort to her.
She is again like how we were before....
I felt tears starting welling up in my eyes, but I controlled them as I don't want to wake her up and notice me.
Whenever I am not around her, I hide and cry because I feel so powerless and horrible. I am such a coward, useless and selfish person. I DON'T DESERVE HER....
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عاطفيةRebecca Armstrong is a vampire from one of the most ancient vampire families. Freen Chankimha is a werewolf but she hasn't turned yet. Freen has no sense of emotions because of shock by watching her parents dying when she was very young. On the oth...
