My Mate

Heartbreak

Freen POV

Becky took me in yacht as a surprise, she didn't knew that I am deadly afraid of boats.

She has been made to forget it. Forget all about me and us...

To keep a strong face in front of her and not to disappoint her, I went with her outing plan.

On the yacht....while we were looking at the sunset a sudden realisation hit me.

I realised that I was not afraid of boats, but I am only afraid of being abandoned by Becky.

After realising this, I enjoyed my time on the yacht with Becky and never left her hand through the outing.

****

Few weeks later

Becky has planned an outing for us, but before the outing, she decided to carry on team inspection in one of her malls.

It was so boring, that Becky has to pull me with her like a kid unwilling to follow.

I feel so bored and sleepy....

Becky finally let me sleep whe she was doing dinner with her team members. I laid my head on her shoulder and immediately fell asleep.

When I opened my eyes, I found myself in a new surrounding with the person I love sleeping my arms.

We were in a tent and I can hear sound of waves.

I moved Becky's hands away and when I came out of the tent, I saw beautiful waves shinning with the light reflected from the stars and moon.

The sky is filled with stars.

Everything is so beautiful, that I found myself awestruck by this.

I came back in the tent to awake Becky, then I took her out of the tent and I sat outside on the sand with her in me arms. "Look" I said to her, pointing towards the sky.

When Becky looked up and near us, she smiled and hugged me as she continued stargazing with me.

During this she again felt asleep.

CUTE....

I kissed her forehead and continued hugging her, my world.

It was already 4 am.

When I was alive, I used to see sunrise from a spot up in a mountain in a far away jungle. I suddenly got the feeling that I want to share that sunrise with Becky.

I took us at that spot and it was just a few seconds before the sunrise when we finally settled on the tree branch, very high in the air. I sat on the branch and made Becky sit in front of me, and I held her from behind as we watched the sunrise together.

"Good morning, love" I said and hugged her as we saw the beautiful sunrise.

"I love you Sam" Becky said.

"I love you too" I replied.

Suddenly, she made me look at her in the eyes "I really love you Sam" she said to me.

She means what she said....

This confession is not what we say normally while making love or flirting, but this is a real confession....

She loves me....

SHE REALLY LOVES ME....

Not me....but Sam....

I couldn't look at her, as I feel heartbroken....

If she can love Sam, then...maybe if I was not around her, stuck to her, she could have fallen in love with an actual living person. I stole her chance to be in love with a person who deserves her.

I am incompetent, my love for her is selfish....I...if....if I really love her, I have to let go of her....

I yelled at her....my love...I yelled at my love for loving me back....how unlucky we are as a couple....how unlucky she is to have me....

****

After our confrontation at her house, I stayed away from her, away her her sight.

After spending more time with her, I feel that now I love more than I loved her when I was alive....

It hurts to be away from her and it hurts to be with her.

I saw her eyes, searching for me several times, but I hid before they could find me....

After a week, on the Friday night, Becky went to a club, looking more beautiful than usual and with vengeance in her eyes.

I know what she is doing.

I will get my punishment today, my punishment to love her and to make her fall in love with me.

She danced and flirted with a vampire woman. I can very clearly hear what they are talking....

I hate everything about this.

I....I feel....very suffocated, so I walked out of the club. But that feeling, still stayed there....

Feeling uneasy and confused about what should I do, I only did what I do best....I started running.... running fast.... away from all of this....

Stupid me....

Suddenly, I was teleported to some room and I saw Becky over that naked vampire woman, kissing her neck.

I...I....I feel something is broken in me...

I shouldn't....I shouldn't have seen this.... because I cannot bare seeing this....and I cannot do anything to stop this....

I couldn't breathe, I feel suffocated....my body.... suddenly it feels very heavy....my head is spinning....I felt as I was about to fall, so I held onto the wall in the room and I saw my hand....I saw myself.... disappearing....

"Bec.... Becky.... I....I...I....am.... sorry....I....I.... shouldn't.....be here....." I apologized as I feel being sucked out into darkness....away from this trauma....and also away from my love.