My Mate

Curses

Freen POV

I am in the wolf dimension....

I have been here for a long time now.....

I would have gone completely crazy if Lucas wasn't here to keep me sane....

Lucas's presence makes me realise what's true and what's not true.

Sometimes, some memories, they consume a lot of mental energy. I feel drained visiting those places and when I am drained, I sometimes hallucinate or dream.

I can't even count how many times I dreamt of being in the real world with my family, my friends and my lover, if she is still mine.

Last I saw her was when she was walking with a man into a hotel.

That doesn't mean anything....

I cannot be sure about anything, until she herself tells me that she is done with me....

A part of me wants her to wait for me to make things right......

And a part of me wants her to move on with her life, because waiting for someone lost so far would mostly result in a heartbreak.

Maybe it's good if she would have moved on. I can't even count the number of months passed here anymore and I have no idea how long has it been outside in the real world.

I couldn't give her what she deserves. I was always a broken and a defected person who comes with a traumatic baggage. And Becky was always a happy and cheerful person, until I entered her life.

I messed up her life real bad. My baggage became the reason of her new traumas.

But now when I am out of her life, I hope she will be able to become that cheerful and happy person again.

"Stop thinking about her!" Lucas says to me as we entered a memory.

"Ouchhhh!" He pinched my arm.

"I am not interested in seeing love making. It's disgusting!" Lucas says as we entered the memory of me and Becky, when we made love to each other first time in Bangkok.

"Arghhh! She just keeps popping up in my thoughts, I cannot do anything about it" I immediately opened another door, going to Lucas's house from his memories.

"I love her. Loving, losing and then yearning is difficult" I said to Lucas and sat on the sofa facing the huge green estate.

"I want to go inside the house!" Lucas demands.

"This memory have all access to the house" I winked at him, flaunting my powers.

"Good....you are getting better at it" Lucas praises and picks up the cushion, inspecting the fine details over it.

After staying for so long in this place, I have became better in recreating world with memories.

Memories can never be fake and it's difficult to go to the memory with all the fine details because memories tends to be blurry and you mostly remember just the important details. The unimportant details, they stay in you subconscious mind. I have become better in combining the conscious and subconscious memories of one's mind to create the perfect memory dimension in this space.

The appreciation was followed by the cushion aimed at my face which I immediately caught. "Just stop being so lovesick." Lucas taunts.

"Once we go outside, I will personally select a proper-sane partner for you, who will love you and keep you happy." Lucas says and sits on the single seat couch beside me.