My Mate

Not same - I

Becky POV

It's been two weeks after I found Freen.

Felix and few vampires have moved into our house. Last week, Felix purchased the entire floor below us and few vampires are living there as well.

Heng has visited Freen twice after that day. They are arguing about something, but Freen never tells me and I never ask her because whatever they are arguing about, it must be about werewolves.

Freen is here, but she is different.

She does not looks at me like she used to, she does not holds me while sleeping like she used to, she does not smiles looking at me like she used to, she does not kisses my forehead like she used to, and....I don't feel complete with her like I used to.

I guess both of us are not same like we used to....

We sleep on the same bed, she sleeps straight on her back and I sleep looking at her, hoping that when we wake up tomorrow, she will look at me like she used to, smile at me like she used to, kiss me like she used to, hold me like she used to and be with me like she used to.

I want my Freen back....

One night I tried hugging her while sleeping, she moved me away citing that she is a light sleeper and me moving wakes her up. After that day, I make sure that I don't spoil her sleep by moving on the bed. Some nights I stayed on the sofa, staring at her from afar, to not disturb her by my movements when I am asleep.

On these nights, I thought, even when she is sleeping she does not looks like she used to.

She cares for me....at least pretends sometimes caring for me....I can see it in her eyes when she is pretending....but she doesn't know it.

She pretends that everything is alright and I pretend the same.

WE BOTH LIVE PRETENDING....

Somedays, I feel suffocated here, in our own house. Those other vampires seems to belong more with Freen than I belong with her.

Saint is worried about her. He and Yuki are still not together, there are grievances between them.

Last week Saint came to meet me and he requested me to activate cameras in my house. Surprisingly, the lower two floors had cameras installed for security, but they weren't connected to the main power supply because Freen ordered not to set any cameras in her house.

Saint is worried about Freen being with those vampires. I also feel same, so I agreed to connect the cameras and finish the setup. I agreed only on the terms that only I will keep an eye at Freen as I don't want others to stalk Freen without her permission.

These cameras are very well hidden.

I took the camera recording access from Saint and during day time when I am in office, I always have Freen on my screen.

I started going for work as I was feeling very out of place at home because Freen is always surrounded by those vampires and we just don't share things with each other like we used to.

Today when I am in office, Heng again came to meet Freen. Whenever Heng comes at home, the other vampires leave the house as per Freen's orders.

She never did this for me when I requested for privacy last weekend.

I felt bad about it....

They were in our bedroom, there are no cameras on that floor.

After a few minutes both came downstairs.

"Think about it Freen. I am suggesting this for your own good." Heng said.

"I have already decided and my answer is no."

"You don't love her? She is your mate!"

"This won't work at me Heng. I won't marry her because you want me to."

"If you marry her, it will help in establishing your status again in the pack. They won't see you as a weakling when you have her around you."

"I won't marry her to prove anything to anyone"

"This marriage can bring both the species closer. Think about it."

"You can leave" Freen said and closed the main door.

This conversation....they are talking about my and Freen's marriage?

Our marriage can solve all her problems....and maybe....maybe, the marriage can bring us closer like before....

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I went back home with a bouquet of blue tulips and red roses.

Freen was sitting at the couch, while other vampires were doing house work.

I walked to her, she looked at me when I stood in front of her.

I bend on one knee and with the flowers, I nervously asked "Will you marry me Freen Sarocha Chankimha....?".

She looked at me with those big brown eyes and then she smiled, grabbed flowers from me and hugged me. "Yes, I will" she replies.

This should have made me happy....but I still feel empty.... because I know that this smile and that loving look was not real.

She pretended to be happy and I pretended the same.

I hugged her back tightly.

Even with all these pretending....my love for her still real....AND IT WILL ALWAYS STAY LIKE THAT....

MY LOVE WILL BE ENOUGH TO ALWAYS KEEP US TOGETHER....