"Okay remember that whatever you don't mess with Delly Cartwright or Peeta Mellark" I tell Gale while leading him into the cafeteria.
"Why not?" He retorts.
"You don't want to know" I reply. I shudder at the thought. Gale raises an eyebrow at me. I shrug and lead him to the table. Everyone was happily chatting away.
"Hey gu-" I stop when I see Peeta and Delly sitting there at the end of the table. Their trays sitting in front of them. Everyone stops talking when they see me and Gale. I feel a bit rejected when I see this.
"Hey Kat" Clove smiles gaining my focus again. Paying no attention to Delly and Peeta. It was like it was normal for them to sit there.
"Hey guys" I wave awkwardly. "Hi. Delly and Peeta" I say trailing off. Delly forces a small smile upon her face to my surprise. Peeta looks at me then whispers something to Delly. Delly nods blankly and bites her lip.
"Who's this?" Johanna asks pointing to Gale standing awkwardly next to me.
"Err oh! This is Gale" I say. "He's an old friend of mine. He's new" I explain.
"Your welcome to sit with us" Clove says. Gale smiles and takes a seat next to a fascinated looking Johanna. Leaving me one seat next to Peeta.
"Hey Annie, can I speak to you?" I ask politely. She hesitates but Finnick gives her a reassuring smile. I lead her out of earshot.
"Why are Delly and Peeta sitting with us?" I almost immediately ask her. Her face softens and she almost looks pitiful towards me.
"Look Katniss, I know you, Delly and Peeta haven't gotten of at a very good start but-" I cut her off quickly.
"Of course we haven't! Do you know what they're capable of!" I shout annoyed. Annie clamps a hand over my mouth.
"Shh" She snaps before continuing. "Delly and Peeta have been our bestfriends since kindergarten and that will never change. I'm sorry Kat" She says. "Maybe this isn't the right group for you" she adds. That's when the rejection hits. I have to hold back a sob. Tears prick my eyes. Annie walks away. I run into the bathrooms.
I lock myself in a stall and sink to the cold tile floor. Tears cascade down my face as I bury my face in my hands. Then something catches my eyes. Something silvery. I slide myself over to my bag. Then I take it out. My shaving razor. What was it doing in my bag?
I hold it shakily in between my hands. My red eyes stared at it. My whole body trembled. Don't do it Katniss. I mentally remind myself. Do it Katniss! Your worthless, and are a coward and nobody likes you a voice kept telling me. I sigh.
I don't hesitate anymore. I drag the blade along my shivering skin making a pattern. I grit my teeth as the pain evolves. A draw another line along my thigh. The pain washes away soon. I vigorously scar myself in jagged lines. Blood pours out of them. I feel myself starting to sicken at the sight of all the blood around me.
Oh no! A trail of blood forms under the door. I mentally curse when I hear Annie's voice.
"Katniss I'm sorry I didn't mean it, please come out" I hear her say. My breathing quickens as I quickly gather my belongings up and shove them into my bag. I climb onto the toilet lid and crouch on top of it. Annie can't see my legs now.
"Katniss I know you in there. Come out now" she tells me. I can see Annie's feet standing next to my trail of blood. Her feet inches away.
"Katni-" She screams when her shoe steps into the red liquid. I gasp.
"Katniss open up!" She screams shocked. I carefully move my feet closer to my body losing my balance. I topple over and land on the floor with a thud! I forgot to close my bag before. Things fall out and roll under the door. Pens, my wallet, my phone and my freshly used bloody razor.
Annie becomes quiet. Maybe she hasn't noticed it yet. I quietly crawl over to the bottom of the door and reach out to retrieve it. My finger tips brush it lightly as I reach for it. Before my fingers can clamp over the object someone's taken it. Annie. She bends over and takes it into her hands.
A horrid gasp erupts from the other end of the door. I don't bother to hold back a sob anymore. Little sobs escape my mouth.
"Katniss! Open up right now!" She yells banging her fists against the stall door. I cry violently listening to her. I hear her footsteps run out of the bathroom back to the cafeteria. I sigh in relief. I quickly gather my things and shove them in my bag, remembering to zip it up.
Suddenly I hear more footsteps coming towards me. I use my sharp finger nails to scratch my open wounds even more. I howl in pain.
"KATNISS OPEN THIS UP NOW!" Clove yells. I sob scraping another wound open. More blood trails under the door.
"KATNISS OPEN UP PLEASE!" Glimmer screams bursting into sobs. I rip open another cut.
"OPEN THIS DAMN DOOR" Finnick shouts. Another cut is ripped.
"OPEN IT!" Peeta bellows. I almost do open it hearing his voice in so much pain.
"Katniss this isn't who you are" I hear Gale say more calmer. I think about this for a minute. This definitely wasn't who I was.
"THATS IT! WERE KNOCKING THIS DOWN!" Cato yells. I scream when I hear the door being heaved.
"Peeta knock it down!" A panicked Johanna exclaims.
"I'm trying!" He yells.
The door moves again with such strength. A muffled scream comes from everyone as the door falls down beside me. Luckily I didn't get hit by it. Everyone comes rushing in. My vision blurs from the pain and I can feel myself getting light headed. A pair of arms wrap around me and place me out side the stall.
"Oh my god! Oh my god!" Someone crys. I don't know who it is.
"Let's get her to the nurse" my vision becomes black. The last thing I hear is a high pitched scream.
A/N
😭Katniss is self harming! Nwooo!😱
😍Peeta knocked the door down😏
😱Delly and Peeta are back in the group😱
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✨I felt bad writing this chapter. I wasn't meant to put the self harming in. If your reading this and you self harm or know anybody who is suicidal or self harming TELL YOURSELF OR SOMEONE ELSE TO Put yourself out of that misery! Throw away that rope😁Put down that razor🔪 Think positive about yourself for once😊Hold your head up high😌 Who cares what those losers think about you😆There's a lot more positive things about yourself than negative😇
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