This small love (EVERLARK FANFIC*)

Chapter 19

Katniss POV~

As I sit out staring out the window, feeling nothing but pure pain, I think about the things that could have happened if I had stayed.

Maybe me and Prim would have made up by now, Delly would have Left me alone. Peeta and Glimmer would be together. I would be with Gale maybe in the future. Who knows.

I am knocked out of my thoughts of misery by the soft knocking on the other side of the door.

"Come in" I softly call. The door slowly opens, revealing my suited father. Looking like he was about to leave for a business meeting.

"Hi sweetheart. How are you?" He says shutting the door softly and sitting beside me.

"Okay. I guess." I say, staring down at my arms. The faded scars still showing from the previous cuttings.

"What's wrong?" He asks.

"Dad. It's nothing" I lie.

"I know your lying" he says sighing. "Sweetheart you can tell me anything remember? You used to tell me everything! Remember!" He exclaims smiling. An angry feeling washes over me.

"Yeah! USED too! Dad! I shouldn't have come here!, you don't know what's going in my life or in Prim's because your not there! You don't deserve me or Prim back in your life!, I see you have found replacements for Prim and I already, those two perfect girls you love so dearly Huh!?" I rage. I can't believe this man is my father. So selfish for leaving us.

"Katniss you don't know!, When Ava was gone I didn't know what to do! I didn't know how to handle it!, I was stupid and I ran" He yells at me. This causes so much anger.

"Yeah, you left, right when we needed you." I say lowering my voice. "We had just lost Ava, we didn't need another person too leave. You left mum. She was distraught, she wouldn't eat, wouldn't work and wouldn't talk" I add staring into his eyes.

"I'm so sorry Katniss. As soon as I got on that plane to California, I felt so guilty" He whispers.

"I know." I murmur.

"Please. Katniss tell me why your here?" Dad asks calming down. His voice was very pitiful towards me.

"Just things at home. Prim and I had a big fight. She hates me. Like hate hates me. She started saying Ava would have been a better sister and stuff. And I guess I didn't really fit in with the new high school. Things have been really tough these past few weeks. I needed to escape" I explain to my father. Leaving out the Peeta bit.

"Oh Katniss, why don't we call your mother. She must be worried about you" He says. We didn't get the chance to call her last night.

". . .I guess" I didn't want my mum to worry about me.

"That's my girl. Cmon" He lifts me up from the bed and takes me into the lounge room. Carly was at work, Maddison was at her friends so expensive pent house and Briely was in her room next door. Ryder was at the park with his babysitter.

"Wait here, how about I ring her" Dad explains. I hesitatingly nod, not knowing if it was a good idea. I give him my home phone number, my father walks towards the phone and starts dialing.

My breath was hitched up in the back of my throat. I swear I couldn't even blink. I was so nervous. Would I be in trouble? What would have happened.

After a few minutes there's a soft mumbling coming from my father and the phone. I hear him speaking to someone softly and calmly.

"Yes. I have Katniss with me here in California. Yes. . .Yes I know Marigold. . . . Around 7pm last night. . . Sorry for the worry. . . She's alright with me. Yes yes she's okay I guess. I just need some alone time wth her. . . Yeah she's here now. . . Of course I will speak afterwards.-" My father softly speaks to my mother over the phone.

"Katniss! Your mother wants to speak with you Hunny" Dad explains handing the phone to me. I take it between quivering hands. My heart speeds up as I bring the phone closer to my ear.

". . .Hello"