Lost in Dallas [COMPLETED]

17.

ADRIANNA'S POV

                 

Monday morning. Rise and shine.

I get up, i see the sun from my window. Such a bright day. It's not too hot which is weird in Cali but i won't complain. I decide to take a bath and wash my hair. I realized how messy my hair looked. I haven't brushed or washed my hair since i left the hospital. Actually, for the first time in years i haven't been worried about my appearance at all. And it felt good. Too good.

I managed to wash my hair. Spent more than 10 minutes trying to decide what to do with my hair. ''Ah, a messy bun must work'', i said to myself.

                 

After fixing my hair i look on my closet to see what to wear. I want to wear something that says i'm okay but also says 'please don't ask'. So i decided to use ripped jeans, a blue sweater and white vans. Grabbed my bag, my notebook and went downstairs.

Going downstairs i smell pancakes. When i go to our kitchen our table's full of pancakes, bacon, scrambled eggs and orange juice. My favorite breakfast. My eyes tear a little.

''Jason, this is... Whoa!''. ''Jason who?'', i turn and it's Molly. ''Wasn't Jason, was me. He lowkey helped me though.'' I smile and hug her. ''You're so amazing Molly. Thank you so much for this''. ''Anything for you my friend. C'mm! Let's eat!''

While eating i couldn't help make faces of enjoyment. Everything tasted delicious and Molly was delighted.

''Where's my brother though?'', i ask. ''Oh, he's taking a shower'', she says and i notice a little red in her cheeks. Couldn't help to laugh. 'Molly, do you have a thing for my brother?'', i ask her payful. She almost spill her juice and look at me. ''Kinda... He's adorable Ade... Are you mad?''. ''Of course not! You're an angel and my brother...He's just the best. Kinda ship it now though!'', i laugh. She smiles. I know she feels more confident now.

We start eating breakfast and i look at the clock. ''OMG! If you don't leave now, we're gonna be late for Body Anatomy!'', i say. ''True! Let's go!''. We grabbed our stuff and i yell to upstairs ''Jason we're leaving! There's breakfast in the kitchen-'', Molly open her eyes wide as a signal only girls understand. ''-that Molly made!'', i laugh, ''talk ya later!''

The ride to college was nice. We laughed & listened to JB. One of the may things we have in common is that we share the same music taste. From Justin Bieber to Drake, from Michael Buble to The Weeknd.
When Molly parked her car i looked around. Everything ans everyone seemed so normal. And i hope things stay like that. At least for this day. We both grabbed our stuff, stepped out of the car and started walking through the hallway.
I felt how people laid their eyes on me but for the first time in my life i didn't care at all. I walked towards my locker with Molly by my side. While i was opening my locker i felt someone behind me who said ''Adrianna''. I turned and was Jack G. I knew i had to face him sooner or later, so why not now? 

''Hi Jack'', i replied. ''Can we talk? In a private place, please?'', he asked. I looked him straight in the eyes. He seemed worried, anxious, afraid. I nodded. I started walking and Molly grabbed my arm and told me: ''if you go, you're gonna miss Body Anatomy''. I nodded and replied: ''i know, but we need to talk. I'll be okay''. She tried to smile but just nodded and left me with Jack.

We started walking outside and we sat on a bench. He seemed to be ashamed and i knew he wanted to say sorry. To be honest i'm ready to forgive him. It hasn't been long since everything happened but i need to move on.

''Look Jack'', i started. ''No please, let me talk... I need to get this of my chest'', he replied and i nodded.

''Look, i know i've fucked up so many times i can't even count. I wish i could make an excuse but i don't have one. I was immature, stupid, jealous, insecure... And i acted like a child. And i'm so sorry Adrianna. And what i did with those pictures... Fuck i'm so sorry. I was so jealous, so mad... I knew you liked Cameron. I knew it. I knew it the night he got home late and your eyes shined when you saw him. And i knew he liked you too because he smiled at you but it wasn't a normal smile. He was happy to see you. The fact your face was the first thing he saw when he got home made him happy and i fucking knew Ade... That night i got so pissed off... I started screaming and hitting the wall. He stopped me and i saw my best friend worried. I thought ''he would never do that'' so i kept my chill. But i was mad, and that's why i cheated. God, that's a lame excuse but it's the truth. The truth is that i like you. A lot. But i don't deserve you. And i'm sorry for all the pain and trouble i've cause you Ade. There's no words to explain how sorry i am. And i know i don't deserve your forgiveness at all but i just needed to try because this feel of guilt is consuming me... I'm so sorry, hope you can forgive me.''

Since when he started talking until he stopped my world froze. His words got into my heart like a knife. I know there's too many reasons for me not to forgive him but i can't leave in the past. And the quicker i move on, the quicker my wounds will heal. So, i held his hand and smiled. ''I forgive you Jack, it's all good''. He smiled and said ''thank you, it means a lot to me. Do you think we can start over? As friends?''.  I nodded. ''Of course'', was my answer. He hugged me tightly and i did the same. For an strange reason i feel so safe in his arms. I feel like this is where i truly belong because being with Jack was so easy. I got used to be with him so quick. And yeah, i'm in love with Cameron but i have some feelings for Jack. It must be dumb to have feelings for someone who fucked me up like Jack did, but the heart wants what it wants. And what if he was really sorry? Well, i gave him a chance to be friends anyways. But why if we try again, why if this time we make everything work?

Getting me out of my thoughts, Jack breaks our hug, look at me in the eyes and, unexpectedly, started to lean in. The next thing i know is his lips crashing against mine filling my brain lit on fire and the warmth through my entire body.