Lost in Dallas [COMPLETED]

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Thanks for the 4.1k reads. It means an universe to me.

Sorry for the lack of updates, i've been watching 'Gossip Girl' and i'm obsessed.

If i can find the time to update twice a week, i will, but certainly i'll update weekly. I promise.

-A.

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ADRIANNA

I've never thought about death, honestly. Maybe i was too into my own bubble to think about the possibilities of losing a beloved one. My dad understood me better than anyone. He was always there for me even when he made those long work trips, he always made sure to talk to me often. He never pushed me to be perfect or to be what he wanted me to be. He never understood why i wanted to study arts instead of going to the law school as we planned my whole life. Being with my dad was freeing, relaxing. Everyone who knew him said the same thing. He was pure air fresh and people loved to have him around.

As i finish getting ready for the service, a feeling of emptiness hit me while tears drowned down my face. I saw him weeks ago, how could he be gone? He wasn't ready to die nor i was for him to. I wasn't ready but i needed to be strong for the rest of my family. I feel a huge hole in my chest. Call it sadness, pain. But it was loneliness.

I look myself in the mirror and i take a look to the beautiful black dress i'm wearing. This dress is so beautiful and it's such a shame i won't be able to use it anymore after this day.

While i was crying in front of my mirror my brother knocked at my door but i couldn't move to open it. I just stood there watching my slim body in the mirror while tears streamed down my cheeks.
My brother opened the door and walked towards me. He embraced me with a warm hug. His hugs always made me feel better but in this exact time i feel numb. Where imma find someone who love me careless like my dad? how i'm gonna live without him?

''Everything will be alright, c'mm, we have to go'', Jason said.

I just nodded, grabbed my bag and walked out behind my brother towards the funeral.

Jason parked his black BMW in front of the church which it was filled with unfamiliar faces dressed in expensive black & white dresses with high heels and expensive suits and black or/and grey ties.
As my brother opened the door for me, those people unfamiliar to me approached me. Some of then hugged me, some of them squeezed my hand, some of them told me how much they appreciated my father, how important he was for them, how funny and & caring my father was; some of them just said they're sorry and offered their deepest condolences. I couldn't open my mouth and pronounce a ''thank you'' because i was trying to contain myself so i just nodded in agreement.

My brother held my hand in every moment, in every second as we got into the church to take our seats. As i walked thru the church, i saw Chris and Molly waiting for me but they weren't alone. Behind them was Nash & Gilinsky. I wasn't expecting them here. I wasn't expecting see their faces. Nash & i crossed each other in the hallway a few times and shared a few ''hellos'' but i haven't seen Gilinsky since... Since he left. I look into the floor while i walk towards him. Jason distracts me saying he'll go say hello to the police general, who was a good friend of my father. I nod in agreement and i keep walking towards them.

The first one to salute me is Nash embracing me with a warm hug and telling me how much he's sorry and he will always be here if i ever need a friend.

Next one was Gilinsky, he hugged me tight and so did i. He tried to excuse himself for everything that happened and i told him it didn't matter anymore. I left everything behind and i forgave him while ago.