Lost in Dallas [COMPLETED]

22.

CAMERON

The sound of my phone woke me up. Opening my eyes, i look at the window just to realize is dark outside.
Groaning, i take a quick look at the clock next to me. It's 3 A.M. Who the hell dare to call at this hour?
I grabbed my phone and looking at the caller ID i sighed. It's the one and only, Jack Gilinsky.
He's been calling me for the past 24 hours like crazy. Something inside me wonders what he wants but i don't want to talk to him.

After i left L.A., i spoke with him a few times. He used to text me and call me everyday. Not because he wanted my friendship back - even though he did - but because he was worried about me. More than worried, he was terrified. I left L.A. sad and depressed and thats unusual in me. To be honest with myself, i left L.A. like a damn coward. I didn't had enough reasons to leave. Everything could have worked out. I just needed to give her time, space... Proving her my feelings were honest. Proving her how sorry i was. But i didn't. I decided to ran away. Maybe the fear of her never forgiving me was the fact i ran away. But i didn't knew if she would've ever forgive me because i left and right now its too late to apologies, too late to explanations.

 It's been nearly two months since i moved with Taylor to Indiana and even though i like it here, i miss L.A. I miss being with the guys all the time. I miss touring. I miss meeting my fans and even though i have plenty of fans in Indiana, is not the same. And mostly, i miss my mom and my sister. 

I think i was a little selfish by leaving my 21 years behind just because i fucked up everything with a girl. 

I left without saying anything. I just packed all my shit and left. My family knew i left two days after i arrived to Indiana. I remember my mom crying and asking me why the hell i left without saying anything. Hearing my mom crying over the phone because my stupidity broke my heart into pieces. And my sister Sierra... She was so mad. She haven't spoke to me since then and i miss her badly. I have tried to call her but she's always ''busy'' or she doesn't have time but i know the truth, she's hurt because i put Adrianna on the first place and left without thinking about the people i would affect by doing it.

And let's not even talk about my friends. They got so mad and they have their right to be pissed off at me. They told me so many harsh things when i left but i deserved it. They didn't deserve that treatment. I left them when our next tour was almost starting. My management got pissed off too. They sold so many meet & greet tickets for my fans to meet me and i just fucked that up. My fans have been trending hashtags on Twitter for me to go back on tour, for me to go back to L.A., and i just let them down. They don't know the real reason why i moved to Indiana. My management managed to tell them i needed some ''personal time'' and time to ''find myself'' which it was true but not the whole truth.

The truth is i needed time to figure out why i fuck up everything up. The truth is i needed time to realize what i want to do with my life. I needed time to change, time to heal, time to... Time to forget her, thing i haven't achieved at all.

Taking me out of my thoughts, my phone rings again. Its Gilinsky, again. I really want to know what he wants but i just need to leave everything behind and Gilinsky is part of that ''everything''. I know... I assured him that everything between us was alright few weeks after i arrived to Indiana but i just can't let it go. 

My phone stopped ringing and i thank the Lord because i thought he wouldn't stop calling. 

Almost placing the phone in the table next to my bed, my phone rings again. Its him. This is bothering me already. What the fuck does he want?

I declined the call, put my phone on silence and placed it in the table. 

''Baby, who's calling at this hour? ''