Lost in Dallas [COMPLETED]

13.

ADRIANNA'S POV

My eyes widen and my jaw drops. His words hit me like a truck. I could barely look at him. Is he serious? Was he joking? After everything he has put me through... He says he loves me?

I quit his hands off my face and stood up. I start to walk around the kitchen, pulling my hair, frustrated... I can't handle all this crap right now.

''Say something Ade'', he says.

''What do you want me to say Cameron? You treated me like sh*t when we met, then you say you like me and we spent the most amazing night of my life--''. I realize my voice's broking. I can feel the tears gathering in my eyes. I take a deep breath and try to continue.

''Look Cameron... I like you. A lot. Since i saw you dressed in denim when i woke up in the nursing i knew i'd be lost in you. I knew i'd fell in love with you. And i did. But what happened today... That's so f*cked up Cam... My life's literally ruined and it's my first month and i don't--''

''Ade, i wasn't the one who took those pictures... It was Jack... You need to believe me'', he cuts me off.

''Wha..'', i can't believe it... Jack? It's impossible.. Is it?

''Think about it Ade... I kicked him off the apartment and beat him up, he saw us together and he came to your door with his face fucked up and me even more... It makes sense Ade..''

He stands up and walk towards me. I look him right in his brown eyes. Then i realized his eyes aren't brown at all. His eyes are a mix of brown, honey and perfection. They're warm and sweet, but deep and intense... The soft warmness of them wraps me like a blanket and makes me feel at home.

He came closer and closer and looked at me. I pushed him away.

''I can't Cam. If was Jack or wasn't, i don't care... This is too much for me to handle. I need time alone. I ned time to process all of this. I'll call you a cab''. I don't know how i managed to say all of that without breaking myself in front of him. I believe him. I know it wasn't him. All make sense. But i cant keep going with this anymore.

''Are you ending things between us?'', he says. I can feel the pain in his voice. I look at him and he seems so vulnerable, so hurt, so... Broken. Like me.

''Yeah Cam... It's the best...'', i say.

''NO'', he yells making me jump from where i'm standing. ''You know it's not the best. The best is YOU and ME together. The best is you and me loving us. And the fact that you're ending everything between us because what Jack did it's fucked up Ade.''

I couldn't feel worse. His eyes were red and staring before him, and his face was wet with tears. I love this man. I really do. But everything that's been happening is to shitty for me to handle... I feel like going back to high school and i can't.

''Don't call a cab Ade. I'm leaving. But, you remember the story i told you about my high school crush? I've never loved any girl after her... Until you came into my life. Don't forget that.''

Saying this he grabbed his stuff and walked out my house leaving me alone in my thoughts.

When my life became so... Miserable... Again?

I haven't feel this depressed since high school. And i thought getting into college was going to be amazing... That this finally would be my year. But the jokes on me.

I'm so mad. At Cam, at Jack, but mostly... At me. I feel like the worlds is against me. Maybe it's because id on't deserve to be happy, to be loved... To be appreciated.

I walk to my bathroom, sit in the toilet seat, grab a blade from my stuff and hold it in my hands for a few seconds thinking about what i'm about to do.

The weight of this pain pressed down my shoulders. It was too much. All of it. The pain grew sharper and I began to wonder if things could ever get better.

But this blade has always been my way to leave my reality. And maybe it's what i need right now.

Sorry for this lame ass short chapter. I've been struggling with lack of inspiration lately. But i'll promise you next chapter will be better.

Love, Ade.