Dear Louis,
Harry took me out for dinner today. I didn't concentrate on the food because I was too busy thinking about how happy I used to be when you took me out for dinner dates. I can't stop thinking about you. I have tried everything but, none of it made me feel any better. All I do is think about how my life would have been if you were still alive.
I feel so empty, I can't even cry. All the sadness and depression bubbles up inside my chest but, I'm unable to spill any of it out. When I told Harry about this, he said that I'm being too hard on myself and now even my own body has given up. He always says that my life will get better but, I strongly disagree. It won't get worse either. The worst thing has already happened- I lost you. Nothing scares me anymore. I'm living life like it's a burden, without you everything is.
I re-joined my job today; I hadn't been there for a month. Everybody greeted with sad and sympathetic smiles on their faces. Some of them even patted my back, saying it will be alright and I was like "You have no idea."
Harry took me out today as a "reward" for getting through the day without shedding a single tear. He doesn't know that it is even worse when I don't cry.
I can't blame him, he's doing everything a best friend should and I respect that.
I love you Louis and always will.
Yours Truly,
Freya.
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