Letters

Letter 5

Dear Louis,

I laughed today. I laughed after what seems like ages and after I did, I felt guilty. I felt like I have no right to be happy if I don't have you. I don't deserve happiness. Laughing felt so unfamiliar; it rumbled out of my chest which feels empty when Harry was telling me one of his silly jokes. I reminisced the days when all of us used to sit in the front lawn and just gossip about random things whilst munching on the cookies made by Zayn. I really miss those days. No one is ever in a good mood now, we're all glum. We miss our sunshine.

Harry is trying everything he can to make me feel better and I really appreciate it. I have cried so many times in front of him. I didn't want to cry in front of him, I don't want to cry in front of anyone. I don't want people to think that I'm weak but, I just can't hold on anymore, I just can't.

Harry never fails to remind me how moving on in life is essential. He's so affectionate and concerned for me. He has always been your best friend and close to me but, I never thought he would be the only one who would support me in tough times. Your other friends visit me occasionally but, no one is as supportive as Harry. He said he would make sure that I have eaten and I'm doing well everyday until I finally move on and bring my life back on track. Little does he know that it's impossible without you.

My heart is all yours; it aches for you every night.

We might not be in the same world now but, I still feel like I'm connected to you. A part of mine is with you and I don't want it back.

Yours Truly,

Freya.

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