Dear Reader

Chapter 4

Dear Reader,

So it's homecoming week and I'm very excited. It's my first homecoming and honestly I have no idea what to expect. No  date this year. I didn't expect one either. It's not like I'm a loner because I'm not, but I just don't talk to tons of guys. The only guys I talk to aren't going because one's girlfriend broke up with him this week, bad timing I know, and the other guy just did want to go. Which is funny because he had a date, but still didn't want to go. Anyway, I look great in my dress, my opinion, I have amazing friends I get to go with, and the homecoming football game is tomorrow. I know some schools aren't really into football, but here in the midwest we are. It's like we live and breathe football. Well that hockey, and baseball. It's insane! It's all fun though. 

Even though it is homecoming teachers still decide to give us a butt ton of homework to do over the weekend. But let's be honest here we are all doing all of it on Sunday night because who wants to do anything homecoming weekend.

Even as a little kid I've always loved homecoming season. Maybe it was because there was a parade and a parade meant candy. Maybe because of the idea that when I'm in high school I'll get to be like the older kids and dress up and go to the dance. Now I love it for a different reason. It brings all of our small, yet big, town together for just a few days maybe even a week. Now this years homecoming game probably won't go so well because someone decided that we play the best team in our state. So that won't go so well, but just being surrounded by the students of my high school together is something that rarely happens anymore. Maybe because we have tow campuses but that's beside the point. It's just a nice sense of community that I miss from being a little kid. How you knew everyone and were friends with everyone. It's nice to feel that again.

It always seems that we look forward to the future. Like I said earlier as a little kid I couldn't wait to be in high school. Man someone must have drugged me because high school is actual hell. Anyway though, even though right now I'm not looking forward to too much in the future there are things I am looking forward to. Honestly the future scares me. Like these past few weeks they had sophomore seminars, and to be honest it scared me that they were already pushing us towards college. It scared me that I'm supposed to know what I want to do with my life in the nest two to three years. That's down right terrifying! Like I can barely decide what I want for breakfast in the morning. 

College scares me to death. The idea that your entire future relays on just four to five years of school scares me. The idea that college is supposed to be the best time of your life scares me, while it also concerns me too. Like the whole idea that college is the peak of your life scares me. I want my life to continue to get better even after college. I want to be successful after college, I want to fall in love, I want a family. I know I'm only a freshman, but you can never start thinking too early. 

For the past few years I've been bouncing around ideas as to what I want to do for the rest of my life. Writing is obviously not an option. As you read this you may think I'm a good writer, but in the grand scheme of things I'm not. I'm okay with that. I excel in something that can't be a profession, softball. Anyway, I thought this year maybe I could go into law and become a lawyer, but that's a little much don't you think? So to be 100% honest I have no idea what I'm doing and I like it that way. 

I like how the world is open for anything I want. To be completely honest I want to travel. I want to see the world and learn everything I can. I want to get out of the midwest I want to get out of America. I just want to be free. I want to visit my heritage and learn more about it. Reading facts on the internet is so much different than actually experiencing it. I want want so much more than they've got planned. 

As far as now goes I'm doing pretty well. Right now as I'm writing this I'm about to go to my school's football game. Of course listening to PTX while waiting. If you don't know who that is you can either a) google it or b) I can just tell you. I'd go with b if I were you. So PTX is short for Pentatonix, and Pentatonix is an a capella group of five people. Avi, Kirstin, Kevin, Mitch, and Scott. They are just amazing. Not only are they super talented, but super down to earth. Even if you haven't met them, which I haven't, you can just tell. They are an amazing set of role models for anyone. Personally I very much look up to Kirstin. She sets such an amazing example when it comes to young girls. 

Kirstin Taylor Maldonado is just an amazing person. I look up to her because of the things she does not just the things she says. Not only that but she is amazingly gorgeous (as you can see in the picture above), but she does things that are just so inspiring. She has a blog all about things she's learned and her experiences ( there will be a link). She was apart of the See The Real Me campaign. Which encourages young girls to be who they really are and just accept that. That you can't change who you are, but you can change how you see yourself. I really do suggest you at least check out her blog maybe even check out Pentatonix while you're at it.

So all in all I think this weekend will go really well. I think even though I don't have a date for homecoming I'll still enjoy it. Just remember to enjoy what you have when you have it. Some things don't last forever. Remember to look up to someone find something you love and care about it. That person will come shortly after. Also I hope there are plenty more Pentaholics (Pentatonix fans) after I post this. Anyway, to anyone having there homecoming this weekend or already had it I hope you have/had fun and if you aren't going remember to have fun no matter what you do. Even if it isn't at homecoming don't just sit at home do something with friends. 

This ends this our time together i hope you enjoy whatever point in life you are at right now because it won't last forever. Until next time.

Sincerely,

your writer.

(quick side note in the gif above she is singing she doesn't just make that face XD)