Dear Reader

Chapter 10

Dear Reader,

So recently I was cleaning out my room, not my choice by the way I was forced by my lovely father, and I had found something very interesting. I found this letter type thing to someone and it's kinda cool how I, even before I joined wattpad, had gone to writing to help me with my problems. So I thought that'd I'd share this with you. Quick note by the way this may be kind of awful writing, but hey it'll sure be entertaining. So here you are.

I used to cry in my room over you. Wondering why I wasn't good enough. I only recently realized that I am. I am good enough. The thing is you weren't. You left when things got rough. I need someone who will stay. That someone just isn't you. So the whole reason I'm writing this is to just say that I'm over you (which I will later learn I wasn't in the slightest). It was hard especially with you always popping up in my life. So this is not goodbye because trust me I still think about you and all the fun we had, but I just don't love you anymore (I was dead wrong with that statement). That's the thing about love. You fall in love so easily but falling out of it is hard. So just to say it one last time I loved you. Nothing will ever change that you were the first person I ever really loved. Sad to say nothing lasts forever (did I want to keep loving this guy? I mean this guy is/was a huge dick). So I fell out of love. I guess I love to take back what I said before. It's goodbye to loving your eyes. It's goodbye to loving the way we were so in sync. So I guess this is goodbye. I'm sorry, but I just don't. Not that you'll ever read this or ever even remember me, but I will. I'll remember the way we sung along to Macklemore. The way we used to joke around. Most importantly I will never forget the way you made me feel. The way you made my heart jump every time you'd look at me, or the way your laugh was just so perfect. I will never forget that. So I guess I'm doing fine. I mean I've moved on.

Well I guess this just goes to show two things. One that I was delusional in thinking I was over this guy when maybe a year later I had started talking to him again. Two that I was both really dramatic, but honestly what's changed, and I was really hopeful. Hopeful that if I wrote it down it'd be true. That if I wrote down I didn't love him anymore than maybe I wouldn't. Well that's not how it works I guess. Anyway sorry for another very short chapter but I've been kinda busy and not a lot of stuff to write about I guess. My life has been going pretty well which I am very pleased to say. Hopefully it will continue this way. This is where I have to end this short chapter because I have to clean my room if I want to even be close to having a social life. Well have an amazing life and just to let you know, that if you don't feel like you are, you're worth it. I love you all thank you for reading.

Sincerely, 

your writer.