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New Years Resolutions

Dear Reader,

So it's almost New Years and first let me say how amazing 2015 was. I did so many things I never thought I would. I made so many new friends that I love to death, but I also lost some people and I'm okay with that.  I've had such an amazing year and I'm so thankful for that. So thankful for ya'll who read this I love you.  I mean the whole reason I joined this website was so I could try and not only get my work out there but try to become a better writer in the process and the fact that people read the work I put out is amazing in itself. Then this year I went to nationals with my softball team and won another bid for nationals in 2016 already! I entered freshman year and in the process lost friends but also gained some friends that I know will last a lifetime. I joined a fandom that will forever be the best fandom I could've joined. The people that I've come to know are amazing and I love every single person who chooses to interact and talk to me online ya'll are great! Even though 2015 was an amazing year there are some things I'd like to do to try and make 2016 even better. So without further ado here are my 2016 New Years resolutions:

1. Love myself more. I do love who I am but more times than I would like I've looked at myself and seen too many flaws that I haven't accepted and I want to change that. I want to look in the mirror and just see me and see that I have flaws but I like that about me. I'm getting better about this but you can always love yourself more.

2. Be a better friend. While I do feel that most of the time I am a good friend I feel I could be better. Like I feel that I've had a lot of problems in 2015 and I went to my friends as you do but I feel like I should listen more to them instead of being the one talking. I don't know I just feel like I'm not the best friend. I wanna change that though I wanna be the best person I can be in 2016.

3. Not work myself so hard. As an athlete, as a student, as a daughter, as a friend, even as just a person. I've been told on many occasions that I stress myself out too much. What I always says to that is because I never feel like I'm at the best I can be there's always something I can do to be better. Where as that's a good work ethic I don't think it's good for me so in 2016 I'm going to try and just go with where the world takes me and try not to stress out over not being good enough.

4. I want to try and get off my phone more. Technology is an amazing thing and I'm so happy I'm growing up when I am, but I feel like if I'm always on my phone then I'm not really living my life. I want to try and get out more spend more time with my family the four years I have left with them before I go off to college. I want to be involved with what's going on around me. I want to make more new friends and not rely on my phone. I want to live through awkward situations without immediately going to my phone. I want to live life without worrying if I got that amazingly funny moment on video I just want to live these moments without having to worry about how many likes or views it will get.

5. I want to be more confident. Not just with what I look like but when I talk to new people too. I want to be able to meet new people and right now I'm a little shy when meeting those new people so I want to try and break out of that bubble and get to know new people. I want to be approachable I just think it will be better for me. I need to learn how to get out of my comfort zone and just start a conversation with people. I want to be able to meet new people and not have to have them talk to me first.

6. To realize no guy is worth my tears at this age. I'm not saying that guys are awful and that ya'll should become nuns, but I'm 14 and a freshman in high school. I don't need a guy. I just got out of this sort of relationship with a guy who was very bad for me and I just need a break from guys and just need to be me and a teenager. I need to figure out who I am right now and think things through. I want to focus on what my future is. I want to focus on getting better at softball and working towards playing division one softball in college. I want to spend more time with my friends and just be me. One of my favorite artists has a song, that also is one of my favorites, and a line from that song is "Don't belong to no city. Don't belong to no man," (Halsey) and I just find that so inspiring. It reminds me that, at any age too, I don't need to be anything I don't need some guy to make me me. All I need in life is the wonderful friends, family that I have. If one day I do find a guy that see that, and lets me be independent while I am with him then there's just someone else to add to my life. I really need to remember that it's okay to not be in a relationship, and to just be little ole me for a while. :)

Well those are my New Years resolutions. I hope your 2015 was as amazing as mine, and I hope 2016 is even better! Have a wonderful time celebrating the new year, but be careful as well. I love you all deeply. Thank you for reading this. I wish you well.

Sincerely,

your writer.