LAST CHAPTER BEFORE EPILOGUE BRB CRYING
// amethyst //
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"the tragedy is not that things are broken, the tragedy is that things will not be mended again."
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"today." i release the air from my cheeks. "we leave today."
"we do." she said, me not making eye contact. "are you sure you want to-"
"I'm sure." I exhale. "I'm just going to miss my parents, that's all."
"I know you will, but just think about it. you're beginning your life with the boy you love and- and it's just crazy." maisie tries her hardest, my heart squirming from her words.
"that sounds super cheesy when you say it like that." my cheeks blush, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.
"that's because it is cheesy." she pulls her suitcase from the bed onto the floor, mine already being there. "ready?"
"y-yeah." I hesitate, following her downstairs with my suitcase trailing behind me. step after step, I get more and more nervous to leave. to begin my own life on my own with the boy I love right beside me.
"don't worry." my best friend tells me near the end of the steps.
"I'll try." I purse my lips with a sharp breath taken in when I see my family waiting at the end of the stairs.
"ready?" my dad asks me, me nodding with a nervous smile. the five of us exit the huge home and see Michael leant against his car that'll be coming with us to New York.
"there's your boy." my mum mumbles in my ear, my cheeks blushing with a shy smile.
"I know." I turn to face them. it feels as if it were just yesterday I were coming back here, and I'm leaving so soon.
"I don't want to leave you guys." I grab both of my mother's hands, my eyes trailing to all three of my family members.
"don't think like that." my mum returns a sweet smile with her thumbs caressing my small hands. "you're going to live your life with the bo-"
"the boy I love, I know." I gush with a small eye roll. "I feel like I just got back and I'm leaving again."
"you can't help where your life takes you, honey." dad said with a wide grin.
I nod, believing exactly as he said. I'm beginning a new chapter in my life, and I can't let anything hold me back when everything's been done. I can't let small things such as this hold me back from all that I desire, all that I desire is to be with him, forever. and to have my best friends by my side the whole way.
"go live your life, baby girl." my mum says with tears in her eyes. I know how happy she is for me even though tears caress her cheeks. I know how badly she wants me to be who I am and to live the way I want to. this is all I've wanted all along, and now I've got it. and I'm not taking it for granted.
"I will." I nod to them with the widest smile I could possibly wear. I lift my large suitcase and trail it behind me down the stairs to Michael's car. with one glance back, I think of how something awful let to something incredibly perfect.
"I love you." I mouthed to them with a wave before I enter the passenger seat of the car. the wave to me with wide smiles through the window, and I can't describe how it felt to have all of that sudden weight lifted off of me.
I glance behind me and see all of the people I've grown close to in the matter of months. maisie, my best friend, calum, the record freak, ashton, the phone addict, luke, my new best friend, and Michael, the boy I love. all of these people have changed me and been there for me through all of this, and now I'm gratefully happy with my life.
