In the Moon's Light

Chapter 27: Wasted Shmasted

Kat's POV:

Well shit.....Luna? Oh shit, can I cuss when the moon goddess is talking to me in my head. Shit, I hope so cause if not I'm in deep shi-----trouble. Crescent is she....she's really talking to us?! Yes, so talk back! Well here goes nothing I guess.

 Hi Luna, sorry bout the um cussing and um excess drinking right now ummm....I don't know......I don't know how to trust him after that. You saw what he did. How do we learn to trust him again after he basically betrayed us and rejected us?

My child, you have long  allowed yourself to live in the shadow of fear and shame that your past has given you. It is time now to forgive yourself and allow love back into your life. Michael is my gift to you to find love again. He has made mistakes and his past is also not from fault. What happened today was neither his fault nor your own, and he is truly sorry for it. He is my gift to you because only he will be able to give you all the love you deserve and need, he will be there for you when you need it most. Therefore, you must try my child to let him into your heart and love you. You are deserving of love, and I do not blame you for your past actions, grief is a powerful weapon that makes us lose ourselves every once and a while. 

I just don't know how to let him in. I'm......I'm  afraid to love again. Everyone I love gets hurt or dies. You know this, you've seen this happen with my family as they join you in the afterlife. How do I let myself love again after all of this?

 You must simply try my child. Only you have the key to your heart, only you can truly unlock it no matter what I may send your way. My daughters, your family wants you both to be happy again, as do I. For now,  farewell my children. I will be watching over you both and your link. Remember my child that I chose him for you for a reason, so you must try to forgive your past and his and love again. Love life and all that it brings to you as I love you.

I feel a sense of peace wash over me as she leaves.....or stops talking. I can't help but smile a little. Luna isn't well known for speaking with lou garous on a normal basis. She has only spoken to people of my pack a few times in the past century.

Well, I guess that means that Luna trusts him and she knows my heart and must know his too, other wise she would not have chosen us for one another. I just don't know how to trust him after that. If he can be trusted......how do I make myself believe that? I trusted him once before and he broke it. Trust is like a mirror even if we put it together again, I'll still be able to see the cracks. It might not have been entirely his fault but he still has some of the blame.

"I......don't know how to trust you again after that. You....you broke my heart."

"I know, I felt it break too. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me love, I will do anything to help you trust me again."

We must mark him in order to learn to trust him again. The bond won't be as strong as if he had a wolf, but we can still get a better idea of what his true emotions are. I think you are right.....I don't know if I like it but I think you are right. But will we be able to stop once we taste him? Y......yes. We will. We are strong, we are a lou garou. I nod my hear slightly and look up to his face. His eyes are sparkling with tears threatening to start falling.

"Will you.......will you let me mark you as ours?"

"I will let you do anything if it helps you forgive me. I love you Katherine."

He slides closer to me and starts rubbing my back. I can't help but lean in closer to him as his touch calms me, making me feel complete once again. I'm still hurt by what happened but I crave his touch with every cell in my body.