I'm a Dixon. ( Carl grimes fan fic)

Chapter 24. Possible

Lexi's POV

  It's been about a week since we've all been here, in Alexandria. It seems promising. There's a lot of people here and their all pretty nice.

  Me and Carl have our own room in our big house. I filled the closet with all my clothes I had and some other stuff they gave me.

  I changed into a blue and grey ombré dipped sweater and some skinny jeans. I put on so,e black converse I found and braided my hair on the side and put half of it in a small messy bun. This is he first time in a long time where my hair, body and clothes are actually clean.

  I walked downstairs to meet with Carl's hands around my waist.

" hey baby." He said and kissed my lips. I smiled and hugged him. Since we've been here he's been happier. And that makes me happy.

" I'm gonna help Carol with breakfast, why don't you go talk to Ron." I said and he nodded. Ron is one of the kids our age here. Carl kissed me once more and left.

  I walked In the kitchen and Carol smiled at me.

" anything I can help you with?" I asked.

" um.. You can get the biscuits out of the oven." She said and I nodded. I put on oven mitt on and opened it. The fresh smell of bread made my stomach turn. I closed the oven ,dropped the mitt and ran to the bathroom. I launched myself towards the toilet and opened the lid. All the food I had in my stomach was now in the toilet. My stomach hurt so bad I started crying.

"Lexi are you alright?" Carol yelled from outside the door.i flushed the toilet and sat up.

" yeah, I just don't feel good." I told her and heard her leave. I sighed and stood up and turned on the sink. I washed my face off and remembered how our first week here me and Carl took that shower... Oh shit..

  I walked to my room and walked I front of my body mirror. I stopped and pulled up my shirt and looked at my stomach. It's hard to believe that something so fragile might be growing inside me. I have to know for sure though.

I ran out of the house and to the infirmary. There was a woman at the front desk.

" how can I help you?" She asked me and I smiled at her.

" um.. Do you happen to have a pregnancy test." I asked and she nodded. I followed her to the back and she opened a small box and handed me one.

" Good luck." She said and I nodded. I put it in my pocket and walked outside. I saw Carl and tried to walk away from him so he wouldn't notice me.

"Lexi!" I heard him yell. Dammit. I put on my best smile and he walked over to me.

" what's wrong? " he asked and I shook my head.

" nothing, just going for a walk." I lied. I hated lying to him.

" okay, I'll be home in a little while." He said and kissed me. I nodded and started walking back to the house.

  I walked up to the bathroom and did the test. Waiting for a pregnancy test puts you in suspense. I sat on the edge of the bathtub waiting. I don't know if I would want to bring a baby into this world but the thought of killing something to precious makes me sick. I would never kill something that hasn't had the chance to live. Even if the world is shit.

  When's the fifteen minutes were up, my shaky hands grabbed the test. I looked at it and saw the little red plus sign. I dropped it and the tears poured out of my eyes. What if carl will hate me and not want the baby.

I grabbed the test and walked into my room. I ripped out a drawer from my dresser and put the test in the back. I out the drawer back in and it still fit perfectly.  I know I have to tell Carl sometime or another but I'm going to wait for the right time. I whipped my face and walked downstairs.

" Lexi." I heard Beth call. I walked into her room and she was sitting on her bed with her book.

" yes." She patted a spot next to her and held up a bow. My test box. My face went pale and looked down.

" it was by your bedroom door." She said.

" Beth I'm pregnant." I said and started to cry. She hugged me as I cried into her shoulder.

" what if everyone hates me." I cried.

" Lexi, no one will hate you. It takes two for this, so if people blame you they have to blame Carl too." She said. She's right.

" it is Carl's right?"

" yes Beth it is Carl's baby." I said getting aggravated. I stood up  and walked towards the door. I turned to face her.

" I'm sorry." I whispered before leaving. I walked outside and sat on our steps. I saw a couple walking by. The woman had a baby bump and was holding her stomach. I smiled and thought. If Carl doesn't want this baby I don't care. Im keeping him or her anyway. I ran back up to my room and got the test. I found a small box and put it in it and grabbed a pen and a paper.

Dear Carl,

  I wanted to tell you this in person but I couldn't find the words to say it. I fell like you'll hate me. But remember our shower? Yeah.. I'm pregnant.. I'm sorry if you want nothing to do with me or the baby. He or she is going to be born with or without you in their life. I love you and you'll find me at the park.

Again I love you, Lexi.

I sat the note next to the box on Carl's side of the bed and walked out, shutting the door. I walked outside just as it was getting dark and made my way towards the park. Fear took over me as I knew Carl would be getting back soon. I closed my eyes and sat on a swing.

  I felt the swing set shake and opened my eyes to see Carl sitting next to me.

" I'm going to be the best father I can be." He said and I smiled.

" I love you too. More than anything." He said and I got up and hugged him.

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  Hey guys!!! So yeah Lexi's pregnant!! I want you all to pick the gender of the baby so comment

✨BOY✨ or ✨GIRL✨

  And I will add all of them up and yeah. I will announce the gender or Lexi will. Lol

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