The Devil You Know

Chapter 49: All Alone

It's only been a few days and I already miss Naomi so much. I feel so alone now that she's gone. Brendan's busy with Tess and he's training for UFC. I had started college now so I'm not always with Joe. I was going to get a dorm here but Joe insisted that I moved in with him, so I did. Biggest mistake I've ever made.

I was walking down to Joe's car after school. I dreaded going home with him everyday. The only upside I had was the drugs I could get into too. I couldn't talk to anyone about this. I couldn't even tell Brendan. I could barely talk to Naomi about it. It was like Pop all over again except Joe wasn't drunk and he knew what he was doing. He did it on purpose. He's hurting me on purpose and he over powered me. I feel so alone.

We made it back to his house. The house was nice for a druglord. It was two story and beautiful, honestly. I hated living there. I hated being with Joe. I sat on the couch and my mind wondered to my brother. Something felt different now, I couldn't figure out what it was. All I know is that I'm so angry at him but deep down I knew I missed him. Him and Ma both. It seemed like everyone was leaving me. I wouldn't be able to handle it if I didn't have Brendan here either.

I'll have to wait for Naomi to get back. I've kind of accepted the fact that Tommy and Ma weren't comming back but it didn't make it hurt any less. Now I didn't have Naomi and Joel and I wouldn't be 100% sure they would come back either. All I could do now is focus on school as much as a could and try to get away from Joel. All I could do now is wait.