Wildest Dreams (Tayvin)

Hold on (never turn back) part 2

LATE FERUARY2016

ADAM POV

The last two weeks had been blissful. Taylor didn't have much work to do, apart from a few meetings and fittings, so had been coming to the gym with me and to the studio. She usually just sat on the sofa at the studio writing lyrics for her own music, reading, or just watching us create tracks.

This week was the week of the BRITs in London, so we had travelled over on the weekend so we had time to get over the jet lag and also enjoy being in London. We had such a nice time last summer, somehow getting away with barely being spotted, and now it was wintery everything looked different. Whenever Taylor was in the UK she didn't have time to just chill and sightsee, so this was a good chance.

At the same time as the last two weeks being great I could tell that the BRITS were a scary concept for Taylor. She was nominated for Best International Female and I was up for Best British Video again. Neither of us really expected to win but it was nice to go anyways, partly because it was always a nice affair, but especially because it was where we first time we got to talk so held good memories for us. Taylor flip flopped between being excited about walking the red carpet together and absolutely terrified by the concept. After her minor initial panic (induced by me...) she talked through the whole thing with her mum, who of course told her it would be fine, and then with Tree, to check that it wouldn't be a publicist's nightmare.

"What's going on in that incredible mind of yours?" I asked Taylor as we lay in bed. It was now the night before the BRITS and I could tell she wasn't relaxed at all. "Babe? You there?" I asked, moving some hair out of her face as she stared blankly at the wall opposite the bed.

TAYLOR POV

"Babe? You there?" I heard Adam say, running his hand through my hair gently as I laid with my hair on his chest.

A cacophony of thoughts were tearing through my head at the moment. Over the past few weeks they had been gradually building up.

What would people say about us walking the carpet together? What will my fans think? Would this be a good thing for us or not? Will we last? Did I see this as a long term think? Was I making a major mistake right now? What the hell was I thinking when I agreed to this? What was Adam thinking about all this? How was he so freaking calm? Why couldn't I be that calm? What was going on? What was I doing in my life right now?

"Yeah, I'm here....umm....just thinking." I replied, tilting my head up to smile a little at Adam.

Who was I kidding? I'd never been as happy and stable in a relationship before. Why was I worrying so much?

"About tomorrow night? Do you want to talk about it?" He asked me.

"I think I'm okay....it's silly...."

"It isn't silly love.....it's perfectly normal, I get it. It's a major step for you....another first. I've done this sort of thing before. " He wrapped his arms around me more tightly as I twisted to look at him. "What precisely is worrying you? Or is it the whole thing? We don't have to do it if you don't feel 100% comfortable."

This is one of the times I knew he was 'endgame', as my lovely fans always said. He didn't make me feel stupid or crazy for having fears, he didn't belittle my thoughts, he just listened to me and would adjust to whatever worked best for us as a couple.

"Thanks....but I think I just need to do this and it will be fine....right? Like even if the media has a field day and gossip sites make up fake shit about it all....it's not a mistake. I can do this." I said, determination evident.