Wildest Dreams (Tayvin)

Thank you and Goodnight

ADAM POV

"How are you feeling about the awards?" I asked Taylor as she sat down next to me, having gotten to the red carpet towards the end.

We were at the 2016 iHeartRadio Music Awards tonight.We had decided not to walk the red carpet together, partly because it would draw too much attention to us which we didn't exactly want, but mainly because Taylor took longer getting ready.

"I don't know... it's hard to tell.... I know I'm getting Best Tour already, so that's one thing to be sure of." She replied, twirling her straw in her drink as we waited for the show to begin in a few minutes.

"Well I'm unlikely to win mine, so I'll be here for you for the whole time." I replied, smiling at her as she rolled her eyes.

"You have a really decent chance to win..... but thank you." She told me very sincerely before giving me a quick kiss as the lights went down and Jason Derulo started the show.

TAYLOR POV

The first award I got was Best Female, which allowed me to thank all my friends and the girls who inspire me every day. As soon as I was off stage, Adam was right there next to me, leading me to the backstage area briefly. Adam was always there, when I needed comfort or advice or just company, and I wished I could tell him that in front of everyone.... But I didn't think I was confident enough.

When Adam won his award I was first up at the table, melting into him briefly as I hugged him, both of us smiling like the dorks we are, before he high-fived Selena and went to accept the award. I knew he wouldn't mention me.... That was something that he knew I might have an issue with. He is very perceptive when it comes to me, so without even telling him he knew. It wasn't something we were told not to do; it was just that I wasn't completely comfortable with it. He had asked me for advice on who to thank and everything and what to say....it didn't show that much but he was nervous about it. He can stand in front of huge crowds and in huge clubs playing his music easily, but he can be very shy when it comes to speaking and thinking on the spot.

Selena was backstage when I went back to get ready to accept Best Tour. This was the big one, it was all about the fans. But I had this nagging desire to thank Adam. Throughout the tour he had been my rock, my home, my everything. No matter if I had an awful day or something messed up at a concert and I was grumpy, he would welcome me home and listen to me rant or animatedly describe a situation. It was the first time in my life that I had had that sort of support from a boyfriend. It was also the first time I had a boyfriend during tour – basically all the way from the beginning of rehearsals until now, way past the end of the tour.

"What are you thinking about Tay?" Selena asked as I sat on a chair backstage.

"Um.... I was thinking that I really want to thank Adam on stage, but I don't think I have the confidence to do it." I told her sighing slightly.

"You should go for it. If you want to do it, then why not? Sometimes you just have to do with your gut. I'm sure he would be delighted.... Actually I know he would be.... And look at it this way: a couple of years ago you would never have favorite posts about a boyfriend, spoken about him to fans, or shared photos of you and your boyfriend on holiday - let alone one of the two of you kissing on a beach! You've come such a long way and you are so happy. And that's in part because of Adam." She said, crouching down in front of me to look at me directly, "So if you want to thank him, then do it! And knowing you it will be sweet and eloquent. Now I have to get back out there, but I look forward to the speech!" She said, winking at me as she stood up and hugged me gently.

I waved to her as she went down the hall and towards the main hall again. And went back to thinking and drafting speeches in my head.

ADAM POV

"Is Taylor up next?" I asked Selena as she came back, just as Demi Lovato was finishing singing.

"She is indeed!" She said, smiling slightly weirdly at me and turning to look towards the stage, "And her speech is probably going to send her fans into meltdown." She said quietly but I caught it.

What did she mean by that? What was Taylor going to say?

I pushed that to the back of my mind as Justin Timberlake starting the award introduction and the video montage of the tour played. I had so many amazing memories from the tour. From the first time I say her rehearsing, to the first show in Vegas, surprising her at certain shows, the times she would spot me and wave or mouth something to me, the outfits, the guests.... It was most definitely going to go down in history.

When Taylor came out on stage I couldn't help but smile widely. I was in awe of the fact I got to call her my girlfriend and I hope that everyone could see that. I paid attention as she began to speak, hanging on her every word as usual. She suddenly seemed a little more nervous, looking down slightly as she spoke, making me frown. She was usually so confident up there, owning whatever stage she was on, totally poised.

"And, um, you know for the first time, ah, I had, ah, the most amazing person to come home to when the spotlight went out and when the crowds were gone.... So, um, I want to thank my boyfriend Adam for that, and I love you guys so much." She said, smiling brightly as she finished her speech.

I was in shock, not knowing what was going on. It was definitely happy shock.

"Camera on you." Selena hissed at me from in front as I spotted the camera out of the corner of my eye.

"Okay...thank you." I said back, smiling as the implication of those few words sunk in.

The fact she did that meant more than people could imagine. It meant that she was comfortable enough to show the world what she felt, not afraid of their judgements or the impacts what they say might have. It had been gradual, from club night and award show appearances, to twitter favorites, to Instagram photos.... But she was finally there. This meant she had left her past reservations behind and was in for the long haul. I was most definitely in for the long haul, there was no doubt about it.

TAYLOR POV

"Hi..." I said as I slid back into my seat next to Adam. I was nervously running through all the possible responses he might have to what I said in my speech.

"You're incredible!" He said, smiling at me and making all my nerves vanish instanstly. I couldn't help but smile as he wrapped his arms around me and delicately kissed my forehead. "It has been my pleasure to be there for you, and I promise to be there for you for many years to come."

"I love you." I said quietly, leaning my head on his shoulder for a moment.

"I know... I love you too babe, more than you know." Adam replied, holding my hand tightly as we watch the next part of the show.

I was up for another major award, Album of the Year, and I knew what I would say if I won it. This was going to be the last time I would be at an event like this for a while, since I had no intention at the moment of releasing any new music this year or anytime soon. The only times I might be at shows is as Adam's date, since he had a bunch of music basically ready to go, and I knew at least a few were guaranteed big hitters.

"Are you ready?" Adam asked me as Selena came on stage to present the award. He knew that this award meant something more than usual tonight.

"Ready as ever." I said, trying to keep my breathing even.

When Selena called my name, Adam stood up and gave me the greatest hug. I couldn't help but grip onto him as though my life depended on it.

"Congratulations love!" He whispered to me as he pulled away. I smiled and turned to hug Serayah, whispering 'I love you' back to him and making him smile.

I was incredibly thankful for him and for the time we've had together, and now the whole world knew it. And I didn't care one bit what they might say because I have Adam, and life has never been better.