She Falls for Her

DRINK HARD

FELIZ POV

I am still driving with my tears unstoppably falling from my eyes. Masakit, I was slowly putting my walls down for her. Pero, wala. Wala din palang patutunguhan.

I have nowhere to go. To my office? Nah, nakakahiya naman sa mga empleyado ko't lalo na'y nakasando at boxers lang ako. Di pa nga ako nakapagtoothbrush man lang. Jeez, can't believe someone just followed Paris' way of breaking my heart.

I pulled my car into a cliff. No, I am not going to jump and commit suicide. Gusto ko lang mailabas ang damdamin ko. Masyado lang kasing mabigat.

"Fuuuuuuucccccckkkk thiisssssss incredible life!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. And it echoed.

After a heart to heart talk with no other than myself. I just found myself pulling into my bestfriend's place.

I dragged myself in front of Rod's place without minding if I Iocked my car or not. I don't mind. Take it all. Kinuha na din naman nila lahat. I just need some people to talk to and my bestfriend is the most suitable person for that.

I pushed the doorbell. Seconds after, Rod appeared and was shocked.

"God, Feliz. You look like a wasted bastard, come in," tumabi sya para makadaan ako.

"Thanks," I said flatly.

"I am sorry, Feliz. Feeling ko nasira ko kayo. Di ko naman intensyon..." As he was closing the gate.

I cut him off.

"You just did your job as my best pal. No worries. Atleast I am no longer blinded with her sweet lies," I smiled bitterly.

Imbes na ngitian ako pabalik ni Roda, he tapped my shoulder at tumingin sa akin na para bang nakikisimpatya.

I brushed his hands away and chuckled.

"Dramas. I am so full with it. Give me a drink," saka ko siya tinalikuran at pumasok sa bahay niya.

Tanging buntong-hininga lang ang narinig kong sagot ni Rod.

Fast forward...

After four hours..

Itsura ko? Hawak-hawak ko ang isang baso na puno ng JD (Jack Daniels). Habang sa paanan ko naman ay tatlong bote ng iniinom ko. Oh cmon, this is what life is.

"Feliz, tama na yan," akma niya sanang aagawin ang baso pero tama namang may lakas pa ako para ilayo yun.

Kanina pa ko pinapatigil ni Roda sa kakalaklak pero ayoko, gusto ko magpakalunod. I told myself. This will be the last time na maglalaklak ako para sa babae, para kay Kate.

I just smiled as a response.

"Feliz, tama na,"

"Just one more. One, okay?" And I laughed like an idiot. Iba din pala ang epekto nito.

"Walang nakakatawa, Feliz. Cmon,"

My eyes were already half-closed. All I can see were sillohouttes of the things that surrounds me. Little by little, the grip of my hands with the glass I am holding is starting to loose. No, I am not going to pass out. It seems like JD sucked all of my strength.

And all that I hear was "Sabi ko na nga ba, Felicia."

And boom, all was plain black. JD just knocked me down.