Ninjago texts

We Love You Jay (IHP5)

3 weeks after Jay got out of the hospital:

Edna: Jay dear, that adorable girl Nya called us and told us what happened! Why didn't you tell us sooner, sweetie? We could have helped you! How are you feeling now? Are you doing okay?
Jay: MOM? Nya called you?
Edna: Yes, she seemed very concerned. I tell you, that girl is a keeper! Anyway, I'm worried about my baby blue! I had no idea this was going on! You really need to call more! You need to visit! I made you cookies to make you feel better! I'll send them to you!
Jay: Mom. I'm fine. Seriously! 😕
Edna: Your father doesn't understand 'texting' so he asked me to tell you that we miss you a lot! Just know that you are loved, Jaybear! Don't think otherwise! There are many people in the world whose hearts are filled with love for you!
Jay: Mom....
Jay: You don't have to send the cookies. When should I visit?
Edna: Anytime, my little blue sweet potato!
Jay: ☺️ Mommy...you don't call me that anymore, remember?
Edna: I don't call you that in front of your friends. But right now I'm texting you! How do you get the little yellow faces?
Jay: I'll show you when I come, mom.
Edna: I just have one question....
Jay: yeah?
Edna: What triggered your depression, dear? Last time was when those meanies were bullying you a few years ago in school!
Jay: I don't know...stuff.
Edna: Were those boys giving you trouble? They seemed nice enough but if you want to move out and live with your dad and I again, you don't have to ask!
Jay: no, no, no! Everything is fine with me and the rest of the team! We all get along great!
Edna: You did seem to be bickering with that Cole one quite a lot last year.
Jay: Cole and I fight. It's our thing! Don't worry about it, k?
Edna: Of course, sweetie. I just don't want a repeat of what happened when you were 14.
Jay: I'm feeling better now, mommy. Us ninja can afford therapists! Really, I'm okay. 😌
Edna: Alright, blueberry. Can you come on Tuesday?
Jay: Tuesday's good for me!
Edna: Love you, Jay! And make sure to say hi to Nya for us!
Jay: I will. Love you too! 💙😘
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Nya: Jay, did you take your medicine yet?
Jay: I was just going to...
Jay: Nya?
Nya: Yeah, Jay?
Jay: My mom texted me earlier.
Nya: What did she say?
Jay: uh, she said you called her and my dad about my...thing a few weeks ago
Nya: I did. Are you mad?
Jay: no, actually I'm glad you called them
Jay: but why did you?
Nya: your parents have the right to know what's happening in your life, Jay!
Nya: and I'm worried about you!
Jay: you don't have to worry about me, remember? Everything is peachy! 😄
Nya: I don't know...after you woke up in the hospital you seem to have had a real switch...like you were never even there
Nya: but I still am, at least mentally. I look at your scars. You had 17 stitches, Jay! Not to mention 4 pills every morning!
Jay: The pills help! And I had a switch cause apparently I have Bipolar Disorder. There's a medical explanation! I cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye that I'm in a better frame of mind now! 😉😉😉😉😉
Nya: I remember how you looked in that hospital room, tubes coming out of your arms, hooked up to a heart monitor. The way the bones in your wrist stood out, how I could see your ribs through the sheet.
Jay: I guess I did lose some weight...I wasn't starving myself or anything like that. I just stopped getting hungry. But can we please not talk about this?
Nya: I NEED to talk about it.
Jay: why are you so upset, Nya? I'm not your boyfriend or anything! Everyone has been super nice to me! And I swear that whatever happened in the past is not going to happen again!
Nya: how much do you really remember from the incident?
Jay: you were texting me, and I guess I was really upset...I can't think about it too much or I start shaking again...but I cut too deep and everything just went kind of fuzzy, then next thing that's clear is waking up in the hospital and seeing Cole.
Jay: what's past is past, though! 😁That was three weeks ago, and this is now! Like I said before, YOLO
Jay: I REALLY don't like thinking about this! I'm trying super hard to move on with my life!
Nya: WELL I CAN'T!
Nya: you don't know how much I really care about you, do you? How many nights I've spent awake wondering if you're sleeping, if you're having good dreams, if the incident is weighing down on you like it is on me?
Nya: you might have moved on from your own pain but I HAVEN'T!
Nya: I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME! I WONDER WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY TO PREVENT YOUR CUTTING AND YOUR DEPRESSION! I JUST WANT TO GO BACK IN TIME AND REDO EVERYTHING COLE DID. EVERYTHING I DID!
Jay: ...Nya...why are you so upset?
Nya: you'll never know how much I really love you.
Jay: what?
Nya: just take your medicine, Jay.
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Zane: How are you feeling?
Jay: I'm actually feeling pretty good!
Zane: That is very excellent news. Everybody on the team has been concerned about you, including myself.
Zane: Kai made you a card. But he accidentally burned it.
Zane: Lloyd got you a new video game! He thinks you will find it very enjoyable.
Zane: Even Cole tried to pitch in. He feels awful about what happened. Apparently our rocky brother believes it was his fault.
Zane: He tried to make you a cake. Needless to say, it did not turn out well. But I think he is at the bakery getting donuts.
Jay: what kind?
Zane: Jelly.
Jay: JELLY DONUTS!?!?! My favorite!
Zane: Yes, we know you will be pleased.
Zane: And I have amazing news. Guess who gets to go to Borg Industries?
Jay: OMG...you don't mean..? You're not saying?
Zane: Jay, you're going to New Ninjago City.
Jay: AAAAAAAHHHH!!! 😆😆😆
Jay: how did you ever manage to get me in, Zane?
Zane: Thank Pixal. 😉
Jay: THANK YOU PIXAL!
Zane: 😅 It is good to see you fully functional again.
Jay: YOU HAVE NO IDEA
Jay: I just have one question...has Nya said anything?
Jay: She hasn't been answering her phone since our last texting conversation-I think she's pretty upset
Zane: Nya cares for you, Jay. We can all see it. Give her time, she is still shaken up from the incident.
Jay: I just want to talk to her! But I don't know how!
Zane: I cannot pretend to understand the complications of human emotions. But Nya will talk to you when she's ready.
Jay: Ok. Thank you Zane.
Jay: YOU DA BEST
Zane: 😂 We have all missed your sense of humor.
Jay: 😋 I'll be back on my feet soon. Then I can make you laugh ALL DAY.
Jay: BYEEEEEEE
Zane: Farewell, Jay. Until we speak again.
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Kai: so.
Kai: u got ur diagnosis
Jay: yep. I'm bipolar. And I have borderline personality disorder! And panic disorder! And generalized anxiety disorder!
Jay: I think the doctors kind of went wild. I mean, I can't have THAT many disorders, can I?!?
Jay: they should just start calling me the Disorder Ninja. Saving the world with my four different medications!
Kai: snort
Kai: I shouldn't find that funny but I do
Kai: we really shouldn't joke about stuff like this
Jay: it helps me deal with it!
Kai: that's true.
Kai: I guess I can be the Angry Ninja. Or the Act On Impulse Ninja.
Jay: at least you know yourself! 😆
Kai: yeah
Pause
Kai: I'm sorry
Jay: for what?
Kai: being a bad friend. And a bad bro. Just a bad person in general.
Jay: luckily for you, I don't hold grudges!
Jay: Usually!
Kai: nobody really realized how important u are to us until u were at risk of leaving!
Kai: and I just got so angry at myself, thinking, what if I had acted differently? What if I had been more understanding? What if I had told Jay that he's one of my best friends?
Jay: I always knew you were my friend, Kai. Sure, maybe you shove me around sometimes. But I know you would die for me, and I'd do the same for you!
Kai: really? U forgive me?
Jay: yes, I forgive you!
Jay: now gimme a cyber hug!
Kai: ummm
Kai: hug
Jay: HUG!
Kai: I can literally feel my bones being crushed
Kai: in the digiverse, at least
Kai: I still hate technology!
Jay: BEST BROS FOREVER!
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Nya: Cole
Cole: Nya? What is it?
Nya: Why?
Nya: Why did you save Jay's life even though you hate him?
Cole: I don't hate Jay. He and I don't see eye to eye a lot but I still care.
Nya: but you don't care! That's your thing!
Cole: I care about everything. I just don't like to show it. It's one of those stupid things I do.
Nya: how did you stay so calm? When all of it was happening?
Cole: I've lived it before.
Nya: When? What happened?
Cole: it doesn't matter. This isn't about me. Are you okay?
Nya: why do you care? I've said some perfectly awful things to you. I blamed you for everything.
Cole: you were right, though! I'm a bully! I don't know when to lay off Jay. One time I actually tried to make him cry. I hate myself for it. Nobody else had the courage to call me out on it, except you! I'm actually glad you did!
Nya: we argue all the time yet you're never mad at me. Why?
Cole: I can't be.
Nya: how do you always make me feel better in the worst situations? Why is it that whenever I need help, you're there? Why do you know me so well?
Cole: Nya, if I get started on this I'll be typing for ages. Just know that I care about you.
Cole: I get that you choose Jay, and I don't blame you. It's pretty obvious how much he loves you and basically everything you said to me three weeks ago shows that you feel the same.
Cole: so, I won't try to change how you feel anymore. But I'll always be here for you when you need help. I'm your rock.
Nya: what are you saying?
Cole: it isn't important. I'm just being silly.
Cole: I brought donuts. You want one?
Nya: no thanks. I'm not hungry.
Cole: neither am I.
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Okay! I have more, but this is already my longest NT ever! Over 1800 words!
Jay will talk to Lloyd and Cole in the next update, as well as conversations between some of your favorite pairings, like Kai and Lloyd (y'all love your Greenflame). In fact, tell me in the comments your ships! I want to know!

On a more serious note, I don't think disorders are something to joke about. I've written this not having personally experienced depression or self-harm myself, but I understand the enormity of these problems. And as I've shown in this NT, things like these can really affect friends and family as well.
I love you all!
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