What Now?

"What now..?" I thought to my self. After four years of High school I finally graduated, and now it's the summer. What do I do now. College doesn't start until another 3 months.

Why is it so hard to know what to do in the summer. When I'm in school all I do is plan my summer with my friends now that I'm out, everyone basically left out of state for college but now me. I'm still her in the old town of Hart, Tennessee. When I was in school I wanted to travel and go on road trips now that I'm 18,but that wasn't going to happen because 1st my mom is super strict and second because I'm a mom and I can't leave my son just like that. Well here's my story.

My name is Jessica Black, I'm 18 years old, graduated from a second chance school that was absolutely amazing to me and treated me like a human being. My sons name is Jacob he is my world, his father well you will learn more about him later. Lets just say he is the KING OF ASSHOLES! Well back to me and Jacob I got pregnant with him at the age of 14 gave birth to him at the ago of 15. Yeah I know I'm a teen mom but do I regret him HELL NO! I was so glad and proud of myself when I graduated High school it was such a Huge struggle but than god my mom pushed me so hard to get my high school diploma and get my shit straight. This is how my life went to when I first got pregnant.

In J.RO.T.C class. (3rd block)

"Alright everybody you guys know the routine everyone in formation we are going to do our weekly test on each of you guys" first sergeant told my platoon.  

We all got in formation. I was in the second row so I had a few people ahead of me. My battalion leader came up to me to ask me questions about R.O. All of sudden I had this knot on my throat. No.. Not right now. "Excuse me sir, may I please use the bathroom it's a huge emergency" he dismissed me out of formation. I ran to the bathroom but barely making it I threw up on the floor .. FUCK! Eww! .. I got into the bathroom and started throwing up in the toilet. I sat down on the wall. "What the fuck is wrong with me... I cant, I'm not, maybe the breakfast this morning in the crafter was bad".. I got back to formation and finished my test. My cousin Rebecca was in the same squad as me and she knew something was up. "Jess what's wrong?" She looked at me with concern. I grabbed her and we went to the bathroom we got into the locker room. I looked at her and started crying like if I was dying. "Prima I think I'm pregnant" . She hugged me and cried with me. "Why do you say that did you and Edward had sex lately." I looked at her and laughed "of course we are ugh what am I going to do." She looked at me holding my hands " I hope your not thinking about abortion prima". My face went to smiling and laughing to serious "HELL NO!!! I can't do that to a innocent baby!" She laughed . The bell rang for lunch and that's when we had lunch with Edward. I changed into my school clothes out of my uniform but I didn't want to wear my uniform that I threw up on. Me and Rebecca walked to lunch together. She looked at me and asked me if I was going to tell Edward. I don't know, I don't think I am until I know for sure I am or not. "Hey babe" Edward came up to me hugging me around my waist. "Hey babe how was class" I hugged him back. "It was alright same shit different day." Me and Rebecca laughed and got into the lunch line and sat down for lunch. "So babe I think we should go out today only if your mom lets you" he smiles at me. "Yeah just let me text her." I texted my mom asked her if I can go out with my boyfriend. She said yes but I have to be home before 9. He hated that I couldn't stay out later but he had to deal with it for a while. We got done with lunch and Edward walked me to class. "Babe I will wait for you after school okay don't go anywhere!" I laughed and nod at him and got into my class.

2:15 finally hit  

Time to go home.

I was walking outside to see Edward he was with his group of friends. I walked up to him and kissed him in front of his friends. He loved when I did it. Since I was a freshman I was considered "fresh meat". All his friends wanted to get a shot with me but nope I choose Edward out of all those guys. He walked me to the bus and kissed me goodbye. I got home said hi to my mom, grandma, and went straight to me and my sister room that we shared. "Hey fea" I smiled at my sister Anna. She smiled "hey babygirl how was school." I walked into the bathroom to take a quick shower. "It was alright same thing everyday...sister?" She walked into the bathroom I was standing in our walk-in closet and looked at our mirror. " what's wrong?" I looked up at her closed the door. "I think I might be pregnant..." She looked at me with a blank face" do you want to go to the doctors she asked me. I looked at .."don't we need to bring mom". She nodded her head no " remember last time you had a pregnancy scare we went alone." I nodded and got into the shower. "Can you make me an appointment." She yelled out yes. I got out of the shower put on some white shorts and a baggy grey cute shirt. He loved when I dress up girly. Something new for me but hey wanted to make my boyfriend happy. Oh yeah I forgot to say he is my first high school boyfriend. My phones started buzzing... I saw the text.