What Now?

Mistake

After seeing Erin again it sucked bad..

I was just so hurt I didn't want to see him again but I still loved him and still wanted to be with him.

Jacob and I have gotten closer but I couldn't be with someone that I really didn't have any feelings for. School was almost over just 2 more months and I was ready to get out.

Friday 12:15 p.m

School.. Lunch time.

"Jess what are we doing today.?" Gabriela asked me. "I'm not sure because I really have to go home and be with David." She nodded her head. We were parked outside of a gas station that had a outside fast food joint as well. We both had our chairs pulled back and out legs out the window. We both were chilling like tomorrow. I closed my eye and just started to think about David and how much he has grown up to be such a handsome little toddler. "Hey gorgeous." A familiar voice said next to my car where my legs were at. "Hey Jacob." I smiled at him. He opened my door and sat at the edge of the car. "What are you guys doing.?" Jacob asked me. "We are just chilling we have like a hour left." He laughed "I know you guys hungry." Gabriela and I shook our head no. "Na we are good we just ate." I said to Jacob. He smiled and placed his arms around my leg. "We have class together today." Jacob smiled at me. I smiled and shook my head yes.

We all talked there a little while and went back to the school.

Jacob and I walked into class together. I sat at my regular seat and Jacob right behind me. I felt his hands traveling my butt and back down to my thigh. "What are you doing." I whispered to Jacob. He grinned and shook his head. We had to do a group project and I was sitting next to Jacob. David was staring at us hard I knew he was mad at me. "So what are we doing." Jacob asked. "Well the project duh." I joked around with him. He got a little closer to me and started to feel on me. I couldn't help but get turned on the way he was touching me.

3:10

We only had 5 minutes until the bell rang. "Can you give me a ride home please." Jacob asked me I nodded my head yes. The bell finally rang and we walked to my car together. We got to his house and he asked me to go in. I was more nervous than ever. I got out of the car and walked inside his house with him. It was such a beautiful house. I loved how it looked it had this family warmth that was indescribable. "Follow me." I walked behind him and we were in his room. It was like an other guys room but country. It was different but nice. "Come here lay down with me." I looked at him and smiled and got into bed with him. He started kissing me and I got on top of him and started grinding on him i just couldn't stop. I was so into it.

Yeah ... We did it....

I'm awful.