What Now?

Nashville we go

Jason and I have gotten closer each day that passed by he will come over late at night just to cuddle and hangout. He is suppose to come over tonight when he get out of the gym but no text yet he usually gets out super late and won't be here until 1. I waited watching tv than woke up to my sister arriving at the door with her boyfriend. "SISTER JASON WAS DOWNSTAIRS WAITING FOR YOU TO OPEN!" I looked up and saw Jason staring and me smiling. I got up super quick and looked at my phone I had more than 20 text messages from him. I felt so bad! "I'm so sorry Jason." He smiled and sat right next to me and told me it was okay. I got up to check David, he was sound asleep in his crib listing to lullabies. My precious baby boy so beautiful, I kissed his forehead than went back out to spend some time with Jason. "So how's David?" Jason looked at me asking. "He is good he is sleeping." He held my hand "can I see him?" I looked at me surprised he wanted to met my baby boy but I said okay. We got up and went to my room and I picked up David and handed him to Jason. Jason looked at me so cute. "He looks like you." He smiled. David pulled a little smile while sleeping, "he smiled did he smiled at me?" I laughed quietly and nodded my head. He handed me back David and gave him a kiss on the forehead. I put David back in his crib and we walked back out to the living room. We started talking about this hockey game that is going to happen next week and he has invited me. He said he will pay everything for me. I got excited I never been to Nashville before why not go. I got excited and said yes. We walked outside to the balcony and got us a blanket to cuddle. We talked and than it started getting heated up when we had a little tickle fight and I got on top. I was on top and he was moving his hand up and down my back holding onto my butt. I was getting excited and kissed him on his neck. He looked at me and smiled "are you sure.?" I bit my lip and nodded. He grabbed me and kissed me so passionately. He lied me down and started taking off my pants. Was I ready... No I don't think I am.. We are outside about to have sex in a balcony I don't think we should do it out here but I don't want have sex in the same room as my soon that's rude! He started kissing my neck down to my chest and I have out a little moan. That got him really excited. He took out a condom and spread my legs... Than he got in my really slowly not having sex in months and I didn't feel good about my lady part before when I didn't have a baby. But I couldn't stop him now. Slowly he went in me my body tensed up "are you okay.?" I kissed him and told him yes. I knew he was more nervous than I was. He finally got in me. Everytime he got in me I moaned a little bit louder. He moaned in my ear and it made me feel good that I was still okay with my lady part. I got too excited and pushed him off and got on top. "Damn." He whispered in my ear. He scratched my back and kissed my neck and left me a hickey on my chest. I went faster and faster than I stopped. We both cam at the same time. "Damn your really really good." I laughed than he kissed me. We both put our clothes back on and he kissed me. After we had sex nothing was weird it felt normal. No awkwardness between us. I looked at him "you think we rushed into this?." He put me on his lap. "No way." He kissed me on my lips made me want to do it again but no had to take it easy. Jason had to go I walked him out and we said our goodbyes. I sat on my bed thinking what I just did. Not noticing I still had a picture of me and Edward on my table next to my bed. It was the family picture I took with him and David. I still can't believe we couldn't be a family but I wished he did change when he had the chance..