What Now?

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I didn't know how this is going to workout we both didn't get a long he will say he will help me with our son but so far no help at all.

1 week old .

David is the best thing that happened to me he is so beautiful. Already it's September 18 my son is so beautiful and growing up pretty quick. He loved to eat like crazy always drinking a bottle and his poop was not the cutest thing. "Good morning my beautiful prince." I smiled at him and he just giggled. I walked him to my bed to change him to get him all cute because today was Edwards little brother Henry birthday and we were all going to go out to eat. My little boy looked so cute in his baby tuxedo he has mad style just like his mommy. I got him into his car seat and waited until Edward showed up.

5 minutes later Edward showed up.

I walked down stairs carrying David car seat and his baby bag. I got into the car and hooked up David's car seat in. We went to the restaurant and met his parents they wanted to see David the most they said hi to me like always but i know they were more excited to see David than me. We all sat down together. Edward was sitting next to me I was in the middle between him and Henry. I never been at that restaurant before Henry was excited to tell me what to order and tell me to try things out. "Dude get off my girlfriend!" I looked at Edward and started laughing. "Are you really getting jealous of your little brother really?" I told Henry thank you for letting me try things out and showing me what is what. We all had a good night and took pictures. It was our first family picture I loved it I looked smaller than Edward and he looked very muscular than before. We all left to Edwards house and sat down to watch movies. It was getting late and I had to go home to put down David to sleep. We said our goodbyes to his grandparents than Edward took me home. In the car Edward started grabbing my leg getting closer to my lady area but I kept pushing him away not until another 5 weeks. I wasn't ready and not yet even healed but he was heated to get into my pants. But not today honey. My boobs were huge after breast feeding. I was a size A to a size C. I liked how my boobs look but more Edward did. We got to the apartment and we walked to my room. I put David in his crib and gave him his favor teddy bear. Edward was sitting on my bed than he pulled me towards him, he wrapped his arms around my legs and just stared at me. "Please just one night?" I shook my head no and pushed him off. "Edward don't you understand I'm still healing we can't have sex until another couple weeks. He just stared at me "if your not going to give it to me I will get it somewhere else.!" I couldn't take it anymore... "Go fucking leave I don't fucking need you! Get out!" He pushed me to the wall and picked me up and wrapped my legs around his waist. "Edward get off of me!" I wanted to have sex but after what he said it just disgusted me looking at him! He pushed me on to the floor and I felt a a burning sensation on my back! "GET THE FUCK OFF OF ME YOUR HURTING ME!" He pinned my arms down and I felt his hard on the side of my leg. I didn't want this to happen...

"Just give it to me baby you love me just give it!" I didn't understand where all this was coming from why was he acting like this. David started to cry and that's when he got off fast. "Damn kid always ruining fun shit for me he is the reason we don't have sex your not fun anymore he is the reason you don't love me anymore! I'm leaving!" He walked out and slammed the door making David cry even more. I hugged David closer to me and started humming it always soothes him. He started to calm down and fell asleep on me. I didn't want to let him go. So he fell asleep with me on my bed. How could his own father say this about him. I started crying and I knew David understood when I was crying because he will tense up. I had to hold back my tears and hold everything in.

I just wanted to go in a hole and let all my tears out but.. No.

1 month later

A week before Halloween

Me and Edward haven't really talked and he was clubbing more than usually he does. I don't ever see him and he doesn't bother to see David anymore. We are not the same so I decided to get answers. I just wanted to see Edward I hate him but I want to work things out for us I want us to be a family. I decided to go Edwards house my mom dropped me off. Edward was outside his house smoking knowing damn well he should be smoking! Edward told me to go inside with David I said hi to his parents are as soon as I took David out Edward parents got so excited to see him. Baby David was more giggly than ever making cooing noises and smiling. He is a joy to all our lives Except for his father. Edward went into his room totally ignoring I was on the couch. I followed him into his room and shut the door. "What is your problem you don't love me anymore do you.." Tears started to roll down my face. I was scared for him to say anything because I know the truth was bound to hurt me. "It not that I don't love you it's that we are not the same I don't ever know if we are ever going to be the same. I know what i said that one time was totally out of line I love my son but look at us we both are teenagers trying to raise a baby we haven't even grown ourselfs." I couldn't take it I wanted to leave the room but he sat me down on the bed. He kneed and put his hands on my lap. "I love you but I want to be young I want to know what I'm going to do with my life.. I just want to not be pinned down.." It hurt more what he kept saying I started to cry louder. I got up and went to the bathroom and fixed myself up before I went to the living room. I looked myself in the mirror and couldn't believe he is basically trying to break up with me. I walked out of the bathroom and walked into the living I faked a smiled and laughed with his parents. I called my sister to pick me and David up. Thirty minutes passed by and my sister texted me to come out . I said goodbye and didn't say bye to Edward. "Sister how was it.?" I stayed quiet for a little "Edward basically broke up with me but yeah where are we going?" It was still early it was only 5. "I'm sorry but you don't need him he's an asshole ! He hasn't done anything good for my baby boy and I was going to take you to this carne asada at my boys place you know." I looked at her and asked if his parents going to be there who is all going to be there. She laughed "no sister it's just us and his cousin Jason." I nodded my head and said okay. But I had a change of heart and wanted to go home so she took me home. Me and David were in the living room just watching tv. He was sitting on my lap sucking his thumb. My sister texted me that on Halloween we should go to a haunted house I agreed and said okay . I texted Edward to see what he was up to for Halloween and he texted me back "going clubbing." I got mad and threw my phone on the other side of the couch. My mom got home with the kids and her friend I never got his name until today. His name is Sam. We all were in the living room and we all ate pizza I loved being with my family. It was getting late so I feel asleep.