What Now?

Giving up on you

Edward got out of the bathroom and sat right next me to I couldn't even look at him at his face I was so disgusted. He left the room to his car to get his bag. I went into his phone and saw a picture of him and Abigail. Than I saw another picture of him and two other girls. What was going on he is going back to his old ways again nothing has changed why do I keep thinking everything is going to get better between us. I'm getting tired of him. When I was pregnant that when I needed him the most well I thought I needed him. Was I wrong? Am I good alone? A single mother? I'm so young. I'm 15 now so I don't know what will happen. Edward comes back and sits right next to me. "So I see you had fun over there at the club huh..?" He tried holding my hand put I push away. "Don't fucking play stupid Edward look! Don't try to hide shit from me! You cheated on me really! You really fucking cheated on me today! Today! Our sons birth what is wrong with you what have I don't to you for you to treat me this way." He grabs my hand and start apologizing but not going to happen this time I pushed him off the Hospital bed and he sat on the couch and fell asleep. What is wrong with him why is he doing this to me. We kept our distant the whole night no talking, no holding , no nothing..

I hate him so much how can I hate my child's father so much like this... Why?!

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The next morning it was time to go home. My mom got me some clothes to put on but the clothes she got me didn't fit me before it was to tight. I got angry and didn't want to wear it but I went to the bathroom and tried it . It-- it fit? It fits! I got so happy. I didn't have a horrible pregnancy well I did but not at gaining weight I only gained 10 pounds through out my pregnancy and my stomach is pretty flat. I got super happy. We signed the papers to release me. Edward came in with balloons and a bear. I didn't want it I just wanted to go home and be with my son. My sister was waiting for me downstairs with her boyfriend they were going to take me home. We started walking downstairs than my mom reminded me about the balloons I told her to forget about them than Edward had to say something smart "yeah but you didn't care it didn't cost me money at all right what the fuck?" I just walked pass him and the nurse help me out David in the car. He was all strapped in his car seat sound asleep I didn't want to wake him up he looks so cute just sleeping there. "I think I should take him home you can go home I can take care of him with my parents." I looked at him and shook my head no " he isn't going with you he needs to be at my place in his crib not your house for what you to leave him with your parents and you go clubbing !?" Than out of no where he says "you know what fuck you fuck this we are over!!" Than he walked off .. Was this really happening. I got into the car and my heart sank.. I started crying and my sister told me it is okay I was angry sad torn apart. My sons 3rd day being born and he is doing this.

"You really want to break up?"-Jessica

"Yeah we are done!"-Edward

I couldn't believe what was really going on. I got home and put David in his crib I changed into regular clothes and started cleaning up. I just couldn't believe all this was going on.

Forty minutes of being home I got a text from one of Edward friends Veronica and Mag they wanted to see David and I agreed to it. I didn't mind then I was cool with them. They got

To my apartment and they came

Into my room and saw David they got all happy and saw how beautiful he is, "he is beautiful how are you and edward.?" Veronica asked me. I looked down and told them what happened and told them I didn't know what to do. They cried with me and told me to not let Edward see David until he changes. I just wanted to text him and tell him to spend the night with me and David. But I have to be strong. They left they had to go to work. So I sat on my bed and just fixing David's clothes. I have no room in my closet for everything he has.

8 p.m

"Can I come spend the night?"-Edward

"Sure."-Jessica

Well there goes me being strong. He got to my apartment with his parent a they got to see Edward than left. "So are we going to talk." I looked at David and picked him up. "No you are just going to stay tonight to help me with David." He nods his head and than picked up David and lied down with him. I went to take a shower than got back into the room. David was in his crib sleeping and Edward just sitting on my bed looking at David's crib. I walked passed him to my closet and put away my towel. He came right behind me and wrapped his arm around me "I'm sorry... I love you so much.." I just got into my bed turned off my light and lied down there. He lied right next to me and put his arms around me. I turned around and faced him "you have to stop Doing what your doing and you have to focus on your family you are a father I'm not going to marry someone who is going to cheat on me all the time and say his son isn't his." Me and him started talking and we got to be good and fell asleep together.

2a.m

David's start crying I got right up and fed him. An hour later he woke up again I told Edward to get him but he didn't wake up at all he told me I can go do it. I picked up David and got him a bottle. He fell asleep in my arms I was to sleepy to even get up to put him in his crib. Wow thanks Edward for helping ..