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6 a.m senior interview day

I woke up super early to see what I was going to wear and pull my thick hair into a bun. Oh yeah something I forgot to say I totally cut my hair after I found out the whole pregnancy stuff from Erin. I needed a change. I put on a pink and black fantasy dress and black heel with a blazer. My hair was high up into a bun. It was already 7:15 I had to get out of the house and go get Gabriela. David was still sleeping my cousin came over and baby sat when I was off for school and my mom was still working. I got to Gabriel house and she came running downstairs. We rushed to school I was almost late. Thank god we were 10 minutes early. We walked I to school and I got so many compliments from everyone. Made me feel good.

I passed my senior interview and my senior project I was so happy.

It was time for environmental science a class that I dread to go. I was always a bum in there but I loved my teacher. She was funny and the best.

We all got into a group with my friends and sat in the back of the class. It was me, my guy friends David and Ron, my girl Sage and a new guy name Jacob.

We all got into discussion until David bought up about him liking me it made everything awkward. "So yeah I always thought your beautiful!." David told me I front of my group. I smiled "thanks." I didn't say much. "Would you date David." My friend Ron asked me. "Honestly David I love you to death but just as a friend. I thought you were gay when I met you." His mouth dropped. Ron started to laugh "I did too bro." He mouth even got wider. "Why do you guys say that.?" David yelped out. "Well because your really famine for a guy you can be girly." Ron said. I jumped in "I have thought of everyone like first impression when I met Ron I was scared of him a 6 feet guy with tattoos and holes in his ears he scared me but I got to know him and he is cool as hell, when I met you David I thougt you were gay there is nothing wrong with it because I love gay people they are amazing!. And sage I thought she was a cool ass hippi." Sage starts to laugh "well you got that right I am." I laughed. "Jacob when I first met him he is a country boy I just want to hug and cuddle with because he is such a cutie with a baby face." We all started to laugh loud "I will want more than." Jacob laughed out. I rolled my eyes and it was almost time to go. I got up and walked to put up my stuff. "Hey I will really like your number." Jacob said behind me. I looked behind me and smiled okay. I put my phone number in his phone and walked out.i walked to my car and headed home.

The next day I told Gabriela about everything. She was excited that I found someone but I was on the edge I didn't want anything serious. I got to school and saw Jacob right away he came up to me and hugged me tight. His arms around my waist. Everyone stared at us hard. I had to get to class and walked to class. "Hey are you and Jacob dating." I laughed "noooo we are just friends." Class was going by and it was already time for lunch and since my school was a second chance school we had a hour and half lunch break. I was outside with Gabriela and we were super hungry we went to the amigos. We were already late for class and went to Gabriela's apartment to hangout.

I got home and today is valentine day. It was a lonely valentine. It was a day off of school thank god. It was a raining day. No one was home at all. David was out with his grandparents spending valentines day with them. I bought him a huge teddy bear and a big lollipop he really didn't like chocolate. I went to my room and just laid on my bed and blasted my iPhone music. I got a text from Jacob saying he wanted to hangout but I honestly just wanted to stay home. I knocked out for 20 minutes until I heard my door knocking like crazy. I got up and checked the window and saw Erin standing there in the rain.

I opened the door.

"What are you doing here.?" He was shivering. "I miss you please let me in I need someone to talk to." I rolled my eyes and he came in. "What are you doing here." He looked at me and just grabbed my hand I pushed away. "What do you want!." He sits closer to me I didn't feel right and stood up and walked to the door and opened it big "LEAVE!" He gets up and closes the door "we need to talk... I miss you so much your the only girl that actually understood me and I miss you I really do I love you so much." I rolled my eyes and pointed my finger out to the door. He walked out the door. I slammed the door and fell to the floor and started to cry.

I still loved him..