Just the Two of Us [Niall Horan fanfic]

Chapter 5: Honesty is the best policy

Niall's POV:  

"Mate, are you alright?" Liam asked and I turned around, startled by his sudden appearance. I calmed down and looked out the window of the bedroom. It had snowed outside, which was pretty expected since it was December. All the trees had lost their leaves and were now covered with snowflakes, such a beautiful and peaceful phenomenon to watch.

"You're thinking about her, aren't you?" Liam asked softly as he sat down on my bed next to me. He was referring to Emma of course, but I acted like I didn't have a clue.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I said as I buried my head in my hands to stop it pounding. Lately, Emma was all I could think about and it was beginning to take it's toll. It was now a week since she had ran away. And as each day passed we  all grew more and more guilty, since none of us ran after her to convince her to stay. But, since that day I woke up every morning by the thought of her beautiful smile -- a smile that brought me from my dreams where she was always present and by my side. I thought of how innocent and sweet she was and how she always bit her lip when she felt uncomfortable. How her beautiful hair framed her perfect face. And how she wasn't mine, anymore.

The more I thought of her, the angrier I got. Taylor is the one who should be on my mind all day, but she wasn't. I couldn't even remember the last time I had thought of her in a passionate way. I should be mad at Emma! She cheated on me with one of my best mates for God's sake! But when I thought of her, I wasn't angry with her. I was angry at myself because I was falling in love with her all over again, and I just couldn't let that happen.

"Why did she do this to me, Liam?!" I yelled, obviously surprising Liam with my sudden outburst. “She has hurt me so bad in the past and now she’s back like nothing had ever happened between us! I hate her! I fucking hate her!” I screamed, letting all of my emotions out. I panted as Liam rubbed my back in an effort to comfort me. “I hate that I still love her.” I added almost inaudibly.

“Follow your heart, Nialler” Liam spoke wisely. I chuckled a little at his reply. Good old Liam with his words of wisdom. The sound of my phone ringing disturbed our little moment and I jumped up to go and get it. It was Taylor, what great timing. Just fucking awesome.

“Hey sweetie” Taylor cooed through the phone as I tried to act like I was happy to talk to her.

“Hey babe, what’s up?” I asked faking interest.

“You didn’t forget our dinner tonight, did you?” She asked suspiciously.

Oh crap, I totally forgot! I didn’t want to go out to dinner, but I couldn’t just blow it off. That would be too mean.

“What? Nooooo, of course I remember! I’ll see you there at six, alright babe?”

“Why don’t you pick me up?” She asked a little confused.

“I need to pick something up” I said, lying through my teeth.

“Alright, see you soon. I love you” She said and I hung up without saying goodbye to her.

I was really confused about Taylor. Why didn’t I want to see her? I should be happy to spend time with her, right? So why was I now irritated? Something was obviously wrong. I love her. Wait, did I? We always said ‘I love you’ to each other, but did I really mean it? I definitely didn’t feel the same for Taylor as I did for Emma. But, then again I didn’t think I could ever feel the same for someone as what I felt for her.

“Hey love” Taylor said as I walked over to her. I was annoyed by all the flashing cameras but I tried to ignore it..

“Hey babe.” I replied while giving her a peck on the lips but she didn’t seem satisfied. Instead of just a peck she gave me a passionate kiss.  I was a bit taken back by it but I went along with it. Why did she do this in front of all of the paparazzi? I pulled out of the kiss and gave her a questioning look. But she only responded with a shrug and grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers. 

“Isn’t this nice? Just the two of us?” She said romantically. I simply nodded since my mouth was full of food. Actually I wasn’t really paying attention to what she was saying.

“I’m so happy with you, Ni. We’ve almost been together 6 months but if feels so much longer.”

I smiled at her without knowing what to say back. It felt as if I was betraying her, because I was thinking of somebody else. I was thinking about the moment I saw Emma kissing Harry, a painful memory to revisit.

Flasback:

 “Do you know where Emma is?” I yelled to Liam in an attempt to compete against the loud music. This was the first time I had taken Emma with us to a club and I had already lost her in the crowd. I was a bit nervous because I knew how drunk she could get with only a few drinks.

“No mate, I don’t know. I also haven’t seen Harry for a while; maybe they’re on the dance floor or something?” He suggested. So I took his advice and went looking for them in the huge crowd but instantly froze at the site before me. I tried to breathe normally but I just couldn’t. I felt the tears running down my face but didn’t bother to wipe them away. I could only watch the gruesome scene unfold. There she was, my Emma. There she was kissing one of my best mates. They were kissing passionately, oblivious to everything around them. I saw how Harry’s hand went down to her butt and how he held her neck and how their lips moved together. I felt sick. Running towards them I broke them apart, anger and depression instantly sinking in.

Emma could only look at me with wide terror filled eyes. “No Niall, this isn’t what it looks like!” She explained in despair. I wanted to say something back, to yell at her, to tell her how much it hurts! But nothing came out of my mouth. I totally froze up as I stared at her in complete silence. I heard her begging for forgiveness but it all sounded very vague and distant, like she was getting further and further away.

“Niall, what’s wrong? You look like you’re in a lot of pain” Taylor with a concerned tone, successfully pulling me from my thoughts. I blinked a couple of times as I felt really confused. Wow, I totally drifted away I guess.

“Uh yeah, I’m sorry I was just thinking about something” I replied, feeling even guiltier.

“It’s okay babe, let’s go home.” She said as she grabbed her coat and I paid for the meal. We silently stepped outside, greeted by the cold winter air.

“Are you sure everything is alright?” She questioned once again, worry evident in her eyes. I gave her a quick kiss on the lips.

 “You don’t need to worry, everything is fine.” I lied once again.

A/N: This is edited by the lovely xXAng3lXx

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