Just the Two of Us [Niall Horan fanfic]

Chapter 6: The hardest thing I'll ever do is walk away still loving you.

"You were so right,'' I told Meredith as we both sat down at a small table in the corner of an old café.

We both ordered a regular coffee like always. I had never tried anything else at the cafe, I'm not much of a daredevil to say at the least. I always wanted to keep my life under control, which wasn't easy. Well actually, it was pretty damn hard. When I lost control of something, I totally stressed out and I hated that. I also hated the fact that I was a control freak and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't change that.

"About what?" She asked me.

"About Niall,'' I murmured, feeling slightly uncomfortable, saying his name out loud. It was weird to have him back in my life. Well not back in my life, but back in my thoughts. I tried so hard over the year to erase him from my memory, and it worked. But that didn't mean I lost my feelings for him. It meant that I stopped listening to my heart. And maybe that wasn't the best decision after all.

"I'm always right, you know that!" She exclaimed sarcastically and I rolled my eyes in return.

"No but seriously Em, I know how you two were together. You were made for each other.''

I smiled a little, thinking about the time when we were still together. Meredith normally disapproved of every guy I dated, but Niall was the first one she actually liked. And for me, that was really important, because after all Meredith was my best friend and I couldn't live without her.

"I know, but it isn't easy you know. He is in a relationship Mer, I can't just break them apart!"

She rose an eyebrow at me as I gave her a questioning look.

"Or can you?" She asked and I wasn't sure if she was being serious or not.

"No of course not!"

''Whatever you say Em, whatever you say. The more important thing is your birthday! How does it feel to turn 19 tomorrow? My little girl is finally growing up!'' She cooed as she pinched both of my cheeks, earning a death glare from me. I didn't want to celebrate my birthday, but when you have a best friend like Meredith, not celebrating your birthday isn't an option.

"Can we just keep it small and simple?" I asked carefully.

She shook her head as she pointed her finger at me.

"Not going to happen! It's going to be amazing, trust me! I have everything planned, I also bought you a birthday dress which I know you are going to like!''

I sighed loudly as I shook my head.

"What a surprise, Meredith. What a surprise.''

It was almost midnight, which meant it was almost my birthday. I didn't exactly know whether I was really excited or really annoyed. I was currently trying to fit myself into an extremely tight dress, which was a hard thing to do.  

"Mer, are you sure you bought the right size?" I asked while trying to zip up the dress. She walked in as she nodded approvingly.  

"Lookin' hot," she stated as I shook my head in disagree.  

"Look at my boobs, they barely fit in!"  

"Nah, it looks just fine!" 

I looked at myself in the mirror feeling extremely insecure. I didn't like showing too much skin, but I guess I didn't have an other outfit to wear. I glanced at my phone which told me it was only fifteen until twelve o' clock. My birthday was on a Sunday so it was Meredith's idea to go clubbing on Saturday evening to celebrate my birthday. I haven't gone clubbing for a while, so I was kind of excited. Meredith had done my hair and makeup because she's really good at both of them. My hair was straightened and it looked really shiny and soft. I loved it. She gave me smokey eyes but in a subtle way, so my green eyes would stand out even more.