The Suicide Equation

Chapter Twenty Two - Skype Call

    I logged onto my laptop and opened up Skype. The KIK message reading "Skype. Now." was still on my lockscreen. I hurried and called Shaw. I was worried about him and I was worried about what he had to say.

    The ringing only lasted for a second before Shawn answered and abruptly said, "Hello?"

    "You wanted me to call you?"

    "Yeah, I did. Did you see what happened a little bit ago?"

    "Yeah and I was fucking worried. My mom wouldn't let me out of the house and didn't believe that I had seen you outside. She thought I was just lying so I could go and snoop on the car crash. I thought you got hurt.."

    "Well, don't worry. I'm fine. I'm pretty fuckingn shcokced that I didnt get hti by that car but I'm alive, aren't I? So it's okay."

    "Well can you tell me what in the hell you were doing!?"

    "My house keys fell out of my pocket, but in the mood I was in made it so I didn't care what fell out. I knew I could get whatever it was later. I got to my car and realized I only had the one key and then sat in the car for a minute."

    "What were you doing in the car?"

    Shawn lowered his head a bit and slowly said, "Broke down and cried..."

    "Shawn, why were you crying?"

    "I thought some really negative things... I thought that I was an idiot. I thought that I needed to try harder. I thought that I wasn't good enough for you."

    "Shawn, you're wrong about all of that. You know that, right?

    Shawn nodded and looked back up and me and tried to smile.

    "You know that I still love you and no matter what my mom may say i will still be yours."

    Shawn giggled and smiled more. He looked at me and then I smiled. "Smile more, babe. I love it when you smile."

    Shawn nodded and then told me had to go. I said my goodbyes and hung up. I lied down and stared at my ceiling. I didn't bother to close out of Skype because Shawn said he'd be back within half an hour.

    There was a ding from my laptop, but i figured it was facebook. I didn't care about what anyone had to say at the moment. Social media could wait for me while I dug through my brain. I thought about everything but nothing. It was all pointless thoughts.

I wonder if frogs have feelings... Do stuffed animals have feelings? What does it mean when it rains outside while it's sunny?

I snapped out of my random thoughts when I heard skype ring. I didn't look over at my computer because I knew it was Shawn. I clicked answer while still staring at my ceiling and let out a long "Helloooooooo?"

I was greeted with silence. I repeated my hello but still heard nothing in return. I looked over at the laptop and Shawn's camera wasn't on nor was his mic unmuted. I figured his mother was in his room yelling at him and he didn't want me to witness it. I decided to message him. As I started typing, I realized I wasn't on a call with my boyfriend.

I decided i needed to send a message to this Black Veil Vanity  person.

Hey... Who is this?

You should know.

How would I know you?

We go to school together, Violet.

Well then who the hell are you?

You know. Think harder.

Who the hell are you?

"Hi, Violet."

    Once I heard their voice I knew who it was.
"What teh fuck, Kara! How the hell did you get my skype?"

"Hun, I got it from one of the many guys you would skype."

"What's that supposed to mean?

"One of the guys your hoe ass would mastrubate for over skype gave me your skype. I wanted to talk to you, you fucking skank."

"Why are you being such a bitch to me?"

"Because you're nothing but a whore, so you deserve it."

"What the fuck... I'm blocking your bitch ass. Bye, Kara."

I hung up and blocked her. Kara had been bullying me for months. She would say shit to me anywhere she could. SHe got my facebook, twitter, kik, tumblr, everything. She would get it from someone and then she would start to message me over them and bully me. I never did anything to her.

I think she does this to me because I told Shawn to stop talking to her. I know how Kara is. She is a whore, just like I was. She says she is a virgin but I don't believe her.

She talks dirty to any guy who talks to her. She sends to anyone whom asks for them. She thinks a guy loves her because they flirt with her.

She tried to talk to Shawn a lot. She'd always walk with him in the halls. She'd always sit with him in class. She even tried to hang out with him.

She flirted with him all the time but Shawn was oblivious. He doesn't even notice when I'm flirting with him, and I'm his girlfriend.

The flirting never stopped. Even after me and Shawn got together, she kept flirting with him. That's why I cut her off from his life. She's toxic anyways. She only bitches up a storm and then expects to be treated like a queen.

She tries to ruin relationships and steal boyfriends. She lies to a couple to cause a fight between them and make them drift apart. Then, once the guy is vulnerable, she talks to him. She offers him support and finally when he talks about breaking up with his girlfriend she says "I'd treated you like the prince you are."

It's bullshit. She tried to take my boyfriend from me. While I know he won't leave me for her or anyone else, I don't want people even trying to make him do it. He's my man, not theirs.