The Suicide Equation

Chapter Twenty Seven - Cruelty

My phone was buzzing nonstop. I knew what it was. Either Daisy or Shawn were texting me. They wanted the video pulled down. There was no way in hell I'd take it down, I will wait until Facebook flags it.

After twenty minutes of constant vibration I grabbed my phone. The annoyance from the two's texting was too much for me. I opened up Shawn's conversation first.

VIOLET??
ANSWER ME!
VI?!
WTF!
HOW THE HELL COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME?!
THAT'S NOT FUCKING OKAY!
YOU CAN'T JUST POST A VIDEO ONLINE OF ME AND DAISY HAVING SEX!
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?
ANSWER
ME
NOW
VIOLET
I KNOW YOU CAN SEE THESE
ANSWER
YOUR
FUCKING
PHONE

Shawn was livid and I didn't care. I laughed at his texts. I opened Daisy's conversation.

Omfg really, Violet?
How could you do that?
I know we pissed you off but what right does that give you to post that?
You had no right to do such a thing.
Take it down.
My life is over if anyone sees it.
Hell, we're underage, it's illegal.
Take it down.
Please.
It's gonna ruin all of our lives.
Take it down!

I was laughing. It'd be flagged and removed before anyone knew it. It was up long enough for those two to see. I doubt anyone has seen it. I texted Shawn back.

Hi.

Finally!

What?

I've only been trying to get ahold of you for twenty minutes!

Sorry?

Sorry? Damn right sorry!

What's that supposed to mean?

You fucked up!

How'd i fuck up?

You damn well know how you damn cunt!

By exposing your cheating ass?

Yeah!

You deserved it.

Ugh. Meet up at park.

Sure.

I knew what this idiot wanted. He thinks that in person he can get anything through to me. He was wrong but I didn't tell him that. Maybe I could get a laugh out of this.

When, Shawn?

Ten minutes.

I had plans now. I headed out to the park. It was dark but it didn't matter. This was worth it.

It was cold and windy. In the dark, the park was black. There wasn't any lights around or in it so you couldn't see anything unless the moonlight reflected from it. I climbed up the jungle gym and sat on top of the slide at the highest point.

I knew I was early so I looked around. The neighborhood was dead. The lights were out in most trailers, and no one was out roaming. There were kids in the woods on the opposite end of the park, there always is, but we're at the end that people avoid. It's the older half of the park.

I seen a flashlight out on the sidewalk, so I shouted out "Shawn?"

The light went from the ground to my face. He was down on the sidewalk not too far away from playground. I called out again, "Shawn?"

"Yeah, it's me. Violet?"

"Yup."

He kept his light on and stood at the sidewalk and didn't budge.

"I'm surprised you up," he said.

"Why?"

"Because if you knew what's good for you, you would've staid home."

"What's that supposed to mean?" I questioned while gripping the cold, metal, bars in front of me.

"You're gonna delete your post. I'll make sure of it!"

"How are you gonna do that?" I laughed. "Take my phone? I left it at home."

He slowly approached the structure, "Oh, I'll make you delete it."

"Well what are you gonna do to me then? Beat me?"

"I probably should," he said as he continued to walk towards the playground equipment.

"Then why don't you?"

"Because that's not a good enough way to humiliate you."

"Then what will you do? Shave my head? Shove shit in my face? Publish my nudes?"

He started to climb up the ladder in front of me, "Do you really want to know what I'm going to do to you?"

"Tell me," I said as I walked right in front of him and put my face in front of his.

He looked me dead in the eyes and said calmly, "I'll make you regret ever posting it."

I laughed. "Are you gonna kill me? Oh no," I said sarcastically.

"Not really, but I'll do this," he reached out and gripped a handful of my hair and pulled my head to the side.

"Ow! The hell are you doing?"

"Exactly what I was talking about!"

Shawn backed me into the bars and continued to pull my hair. He covered my mouth with his free hand and kissed my neck and bit it. His hands gradually freed me and just wandered down my body. I shoved him back.

"Get the fuck off me!" I shouted at him.

"You deserve every second of this you fucking whore."

I turned around and stared to run away, he gripped my shirt and pulled me back. I stumbled in his direction and fell back on the metal flooring of the jungle gym. I yelped in pain.

Shawn did the unthinkable. He pushed me down into the metal and pinned me there as he pulled my pants down and unzipped his. I knew what he was going to do.

"Shawn!!! Please, fucking stop!" I screamed.

"Hell no! You know you want it! I'm still your boyfriend!" He covered my mouth and started to pull down my underwear.

"After what you did to me you should've assumed I left your ass!"

"Well you never said it so I'll get one more good time outta you!" He covered my mouth and shoved himself into me.

Every second was hell. I didn't want this. I didn't give him permission for this. I wasn't ready for this. None of this was okay.

I felt filthy while he used me. He was relentless. He pushed me into the metal so hard I started to bruise. He covered my mouth and nose making it hard to breathe and pulled my hair and ripped a few chunks out.

He didn't stop till he was almost finished, but he had enough heart to get out of me before he ruined my life with something neither of us wanted. He still made me feel dirty; He finished on my chest.

It was disgusting. He left me lying there and walked away. I lied there and stared at the stars and cried. I took my shirt off and threw it away. I pulled my pants on and ran home. I immediately got in the shower and turned it up as hot as it could get.