The Bad Boy Returns

Chapter 20:What If I'm Not Fine?

KAT'S POV
I stand there in the middle of the hospital room right next to the smeared blood on the floor where Shane was laying. I look around,scared.
What do I do?
He told me to stay.
Jennifer comes in with tears in her eyes. She was paged while they were rolling Shane into surgery. She walks into the room with tears in her eyes.
"How is he?" I finally say.
"Um he's not doing well right now..." Her voice starts to shake. "They're trying to stay hopeful that he'll pull through." She looks at me. My eyes widen and I nod, not knowing what else to say or do. "I'm gonna go check up again. Are you sure you want to stay?" She asks me, heading towards the door. "Yeah, I'm staying." I say back to her. She nods sharply before exiting the room.
I turn around and walk towards the bed. I don't like to cry in front of people and I've been keeping pretty good to that through out this whole endeavor but tonight was too much and without  warning I start crying. I sit on the bed scared that my tears are going to worsen my seeing. I sit there crying with my head in my hands.
If you would've told me a year ago that I would be at Shane's bed side crying about him I would've laughed in your face and called you crazy. I could've never imagined that we would be where we are at now. I never knew that I would be so dependent on him, or that we would both confide in each other at times. It scares me how much I've grown to care for the guy who put me through hell, practically my entire life so far. I never would have  guessed in a million years that this would be my life.
I'm startled by the sound of my phone buzzing in my pocket.
I wipe away my tears before reaching into my pocket and pulling out my phone.
"Hello." I answer.
"Hey, Kat. How is everything over there? Is Shane doing good? Your dad was wondering what was happening and honestly so am I." I hear Nikki ramble on the other side. I am so happy to hear her voice.
"Hey Nik umm Shane is in surgery..." I say not able to finish my thought.
"Oh my...!" She pauses, composing herself. "I'm sure he'll be fine Kat. You know Shane that kid bounces back like a ball. A very loud and obnoxious ball...You know what I'm trying to stay." She states, actually making me chuckle a little.
"Yeah,he does." I nod, more to myself than to Nikki.
"Ok you sound exhausted so I'm going to let you go. At least try to rest ok? We don't need you going to the hospital too." She says sternly.
"Ok thanks. Bye" I say quickly.
"Bye." She hangs up.
I feel anger towards the fact that his brother, despite their differences, isn't here to support Shane or try to seem like he cares at all. I wish things could be different sometimes.
I go over to the small couch chair next to the bed and curl up there and start getting lost in thought. I sit there only hearing the faint beeping sound from the hallway.

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SHANE'S POV
All I see as I'm rolled away was Kat's small, shaking figure getting further and further away. I was completely terrified and wished she could stay by my side through the surgery. I simultaneously wish I could go back over there, hold her and tell her that I'm going to be fine. Unfortunately I can't do either of those things. As they roll me away I see the bright lamps on the ceiling. I hear the beeps of the monitors around the hallways. I hear the wheels of the gurney clicking on the floor as they roll. There's the chatter of the people on the sidelines curiously wanting to see what was happening. I can hear the nurses and Doctor talking in hushed tones and I can feel them grabbing at me to see the injuries. I hear my mom from somewhere to the left of me crying and trying to ease my mind with her words.
"Honey you're doing great. You'll be fine"
It doesn't work. Though I wish I could ease her mind. I wish she didn't have to see this.
What if I'm not fine?
What happens then?

I feel the beat of my heart thumping quickly in my chest. I can't really move too much without the pain shooting through my whole body. I feel the blood trickling out of me.
I want to yell. I want to scream. I
want to panic.
I want to tell them how much it hurts. I want it to stop, but it's like my voice was ripped out of my throat. Nothing's coming out. I feel so helpless without my voice. I want to tell them to hurry up and fix me!

For some odd reason I can't stop thinking about that old man and old lady from outside my hospital room.
I wouldn't want them to go through something and him never getting the chance to tell her how he felt.
I don't want him to miss out because he waited to long.
My eyelids start to feel heavier and slowly blink. I can feel my self losing consciousness. Before I black out I hear the doctors voice.
"This is our last chance. It's up to us to save him, it's now or never!"

KAT'S POV
I wake up to a strange noise,in the same position I started in. On the couch chair next to the bed. I turn around to see what the noise is and see Shane laying right next to me in his bed. With two giant bandages wrapped around him. One wrapped around his head and one wrapped around his stomach. I turn a little more to see that he is slightly awake.
"Hey, Kitty."

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