The Bad Boy Returns

Chapter 29: Tight Grip On Reality

SHANE'S POV
Standing there and hearing what Kat's mom thinks of me made me feel like crap. Especially when she got into detail about how Kat would come home crying because of the way I tormented her. I really messed up big time and should be freaking grateful that she forgave me the way that she did. She had never been a fan of mine. She always liked the nice boys, pretty much the kids that are ass kissers. I never fit into her mold of how a boy should act and she hated me for it, especially since I was always around her daughter. That's what most people thought of me, especially when I was sent away. You could see it in everybody's eyes that day. Even my step-dad looked at me with almost a disgust in his eyes. The only person who didn't look like that was my mom. She was the only person who saw more in me than my mistakes. That was until Kat forgave me.

When Kat's mom brought up the fact that everyone thinks Kat has changed I resisted the urge to roll my eyes. Personally I think it's an improvement. She used to never speak up, thinking she didn't have the right to, due to her mother's teachings. That's what really made it easy to push her around, she never fought back. But recently with all that's going on with her mom and Nate, Brit and Alex she's really fought back. She hasn't let any of these people walk all over her anymore. Especially me, she doesn't take my shit anymore and I'm personally proud of that development. She deserves to be heard. She's got a lot to say.
Her mom is just mad that she isn't in control of her and the fact that she is her own person, who also doesn't fit her mothers ridiculous mold. I just hope it continues when things get really difficult.

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"Here take these." I chuck some more comfortable clothes her way. She catches them with ease and mumbles a thank you. She shuffles past me but I stand in front of her before she can. "What are you doing?" She ask, eyeing me. I lift my fingers and grab a bright red leaf out of her hair. "You have a nest in your hair." I exaggerate, holding the leaf up to her face. Her eyes widen and she pats her hair. She probably wishes she hadn't climbed my tree now. "Can I borrow your shower?" She groans, setting the clothes on the bed. "Go for it." I point to the bathroom door and she thanks me before scurrying in there. I hear shuffling and then the sound of water hitting the marble bath surrounds the room. I go to my closet grabbing extra blankets and pillows for Kat to have, knowing she likes sleeping surrounded by pillows.
"Dammit!" I hear her shout from the bathroom and I lift my head at the sudden noise. "Shane?!" She asks. I shuffle to the other side of the door and put my face close to the door. "Yeah?" I answer back, waiting for a reply. "I left the clothes you gave me in your room." She explains. I turn and spot them on the edge of my bed. "Could you bring them in here?" She asks and my eyes widen. "Uhh yeah." I say slowly, grabbing the clothes. "Um I'm coming in." I warn her before turning the door handle, pushing the door open and look up. At the same time she pushed the curtains slightly, popping her out of the side. Her blonde hair soaked and dripping. Her shoulders are exposed from behind curtains and water covers her face. I watch the water slide down her shoulders before looking up at her eyes. She meets my eyes and smiles. "Thanks..." Her cheeks redden. "Yup." I say looking away. I turn and exit the bathroom quickly, shutting the door. I turn to my mirror and see my face covered in a red hue as well. I sigh in relief, and shake the thoughts out of my head. I pull back the blankets on top of my bed and settle in, leaving the lights on for Kat to get out.

I hear the shower stop and listen to shuffling in the bathroom. The door opens revealing Kat standing there fully clothed. She's wearing my grey sweat pants and a flannel that are both way too big for her. She looks over at me with a tired expression and I sigh. "The offers still on the table if you want to talk about it?" I say, as she crawls into the other side of the bed. "Actually, I wanted to ask if you were ok? My mom was really harsh on you." She turns her head to look at me. We are laying down, both facing each other. "Well the reality of it is that she was telling the truth, I was an asshole to you, big time. A lot of your problems were my fault." I tell her. "And anyways I can handle anything." I give her a smile. She scrunches her eyebrows and quickly grabs one of my hands and strokes up and down my arm, sending shivers through my body. "Trust me Shane, you were not the worst of my problems, I've dealt with a lot worse than you." She says and I immediately know what she's talking about.
It immediately pulls me out of her captivating hold.
Although I don't want to, I pull my arm away from her knowing we can't be acting like this if I haven't told her that I was there yet. It will just hurt even more when she gets angry and never talks to me again. I can't handle anymore of that. The truth is I can't be with her all because I was there. I can't have her unless I tell her and when I do that she's not going to stand the sight of me. It hurts knowing that I'm going to lose her once I tell her. It's all I've been thinking about. Maybe her mom was right, she'd be better off without me. Now I can give her that chance. I look over at her face and see hurt across it, as I pulled my arm back. Good, shes mad at me, it won't be as hard if I can just have her stay mad at me. "Are you ok?" She says, being her curious little self. I sigh and trying not to meet her eyes. "I'm fine, um I'm just tired." I say ending the conversation. I turn my back facing her and shut off the lights. I hear an audible sigh come from her and she pulls the blanket over her body. "Whatever you say, Shane."
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Would you guys be interested in a chapter about what Shane went through in juvie? It's been floating in my head but I wasn't sure if I was going to add it into the story.
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